A Mother's Life Unleashed

The Waiting game...

2010-07-01T11:01:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone,
You are probably wondering what my fb posts are all about.. well, let me tell you.

sleeping issues:

Here's the thing.. Abby, my sweet girl has never given us issues with sleeping until tuesday morning. She self soothes and never really cared to be rocked as a baby, which was soo great! until tuesday morning. She woke up crying at 4am. Mind you this is very unusual. I got up as to allow hubby to sleep before he gets up for work, as hes always soo tired from being up working late at home. anyhow.. She was fine.. not wet, not really hungry, so i rocked her a lil as to not drop her because i was tired too. well, the times i tried to lay her back down..she refused.. clung on to me and cried. -sigh- after 2 hrs of this.. i decided to get her some milk and see if that would help comfort her a bit. It helped a lil and at 6am hubby came in already showered and told me he would take over.. He was finally able to put her back to bed at 7am. thank goodness too. because he had to go to work asap. Naptime was fine..so we thought nothing of it. tuesday night she decided to cling to daddy as he put her to bed.. he was frustrated because it was then we realized.. this was gonna be a big problem..
wednesday morning.. she woke up again.. this time at 6am which was not too bad. but again..i have to get up. she was wet..so i had to change her fully and that kinda woke her up more. she wanted to go wake sister.. lol. and i was like no way!! i sat with her in her room on the rocker for about an hour, then i was like..lets get up. im hungry and shes up.. so we did.. melanie ended up waking up at 7:30am because Abby is soo loud. thankfully she wasnt upset about it but more ok to come watch something for a little bit before breakfast. We went to the mall with a friend and her kiddos and wore them out. by the time we arrived at home, which was at noon, abby was passed out. So i put her to bed..early nap. Melanie and i had lunch and just chilled for awhile before i decided to put her for a lil nap too because i was TIIIIRRREEEDD!! -sigh- it was about 3pm. Abby slept till 4pm. and melanie till 5pm. Anyhow, last night was just awful. Abby had been up since 3pm and we were putting them to bed at 9:30pm. It started with Abby clinging to daddy again..then he came back asking me what we should do. I told him she needs to CIO.. nip this in the bud.. he agreed..its for the best, besides she was soo tired already that she wouldnt last too long before falling asleep. BOY o BOY! She cried for about 30 minutes..which was very bearable for us because Melanie took longer the first time we did it back in the day. Abby sat there sucking on her paci and holding her blankie..she was getting tired.. we were very happy for this.. she started to sway back and forth..each time catching herself..then she would get into a crawl position as to try and lay down but she never did, just sat back down again. from 10pm-11:30 she did this.. and each time catching herself and sitting back down and trying again.. it was heartbreaking as we were watching from the video monitor and would rally a "there you go" "just lay down baby" "put your head down" "OH.. no!!! She doesnt know HOW to laydown on her own!" it was a reality that we didnt think would be an issue.. melanie never rolled or layed down either and shes now a tummy sleeper. my thoughts were "she'll figure it out" or "she'll eventually tip over to a laying position" right?? well.. we waited.. and waited.. and waited.. and from 11:30-1am.. it was the same.. swaying and crawl position, and then sitting up again.. it was really getting to me.. why hasnt she passed out yet???? at 1am.. i was sooo done.. done waiting..done watching.. done.. done.. done.. i picked her up and held her.. my sweet girl did what she knew to do but didnt accomplish the task.. hubby came in and told me he would put her to bed, for me to go to sleep.. and we had our cell phones close by just in case we needed to switch off like infancy days. thankfully..30 min. later hubby was able to put her bed.
so this morning..my task to accomplish today was to try and get abby to somehow lay on her tummy.. no go! things ive tried so far.. i had her hug me and i would lay back but she has an automatic push-up reflex!! she wont lay down.. AND she wont lay her legs down flat..she keeps bending them as to keep herself at a crawl position.. :O( i tried even pillows on the floor as to get her to rest her head.. which kinda worked until big sister started to get in the way.. and i mean she would hog the pillows or when abby finally wanted to lay on one.. shed snatch it! let me tell you.. she was frustrating me at this point(melanie). So, im outta ideas and was hoping someone would offer some insights into this dilemma. -sigh-
Abby is napping right now thankfully.. i layed her down as normal and she started to sit up and cry but then she just kinda layed back down and it was like usual again.. also.. i failed to mention our first attempt this morning was the rolling thing but abby actually sat up and then layed back down the same way when i layed her down.. which i was like WTH?? why didnt u do this last night?? so i tried to make it a big deal and clapped and yayed.. so if all else fails with the tummy trying..at least i know she can lower herself on her back from a sitting position.

so..its just an issue with us right now... i hate doing CIO but i can honestly say it works. You can see how watching your lil one sway back and forth for 3hrs or so can just break your heart right? you just want to go in there and help her along. but you cant.. because then she just wants to be held and will start the whole cry session again. :O( im really hoping this is temporary..i just want our life to be back to normal again.. i cant have this happening when its time to send melanie to school.. poor mel was yelling to abby to stop crying those first 30 mins..so yeah. it affects the whole family...not just us. :O(
thanks for listening.. i just need a listening ear and any suggestions. thanks! till next time.. im hoping this waiting game is gonna be over soon.
hugs- deb

It's been transition after transition!

2010-06-16T12:42:00.001-07:00

Hi everyone!
Boy oh boy have we been busy around the Ramos household!

First off: Potty training

I can honestly say Melanie is potty trained during the day! yay! We have not used potty prizes for a while now but we do use the pull-ups during naps and bedtime. For the most part though she will keep those dry during nap, just working on staying dry at night.. Its a little difficult because she does tend to want a drink before bed and i refuse to deprive her of a small amount so its given when asked for.
She is still scared to sit on big potties without the kids seat on it, so its been great that i got that folding potty seat that fits in our back pack easily. its been used very often when out and about. :O) We had been using her lil small potty in the living room but today i decided "no more." She tends to sit and linger there when shes all done and she needs to just start doing her business and get off..wash hands.. etc. so its gone. It was convienent for training though. Im just glad this has been nipped.. the potty training. one less thing to do! yippee!

Room transition:

Well, Melanie did get the princess Tiana bedroom she wanted. It was sad taking all the baby crib bedding stuff down and out but so worth it! She just loves princess and the frog! :O) Anyhow.. the mattresses were pricey but she sleeps very well and she loves that she has a big birl bed! Its worked out well too because she still does not climb out of bed or leave her room during nap or at night. which we had concerns about but i think because she is use to waiting for us to come in and get her from her crib..it just stuck. I am still amazed though at the mattresses.. they are so high now a days!! why is that? even i need to use her step stool to get up on the bed to fix it and im not short by no means. and its not a pillow top either! that wouldve been 2-3 inches higher i think! yikes! Im just glad it has worked out for her..I'm still adding a few things in her room to make it more "tiana" themed and not so bare on the walls. It will be super nice when its finally done!

Preschool-

Well, this one caught me off guard. Melanie just turned 3 about a week or so ago but last month while we were having lunch after church with my Inlaws, they asked if i would be sending her to school this year.. and well, I told them no. Mainly because we dont have the funds to send her anywhere, I had asked them a few weeks earlier if they would help pay for tuition to send Melanie to Pre-K which would be Fall of 2011 when shes 4. Of course, ive had the mindset that im a teacher and i could teach her, which i have, but a part of me was now feeling that she "needs" to go to a school so she can learn how to better interact with kids her own age and learn about more things that i just cant show her because little sister gets in the way sometimes. ok. who am i kidding.. all the time. And it seems like she is curious about playing with other kids and i want her to but i want it to be in a safe environment where she doesnt have lil sister ruining the learning and play moments. does that make sense? Abby is such a handful these days... -sigh- its never a dull moment! Well, My inlaws told me to go ahead and look for a school to send her for a few days a week for 1/2 a day and they would pay for it.. "SERIOUSLY??"" REALLY???"" YES! they tell me! I just wanted to give them big big hugs!!!! God Bless them!!!
So the hunt was on to find a school that was not a daycare, where learning and play was the focus! well, i looked into several places.. and actually it was my husbands co-worker that told us about a school that she sent her boys to and she absolutely loved!!! highly recommended it. At first i was skeptical because it is part of a church type setting.. but not an MDO. Which was another thing i was trying to avoid. Not that they are bad but they are not necessarily there for the purpose of teaching children. Anyhow. I researched this school and i fell in love with the whole focus and purpose of the school! It has everything a certified teacher would want for her child and more! So i had to set up a tour! I took my father in law with us. It went great!!! We both loved it! and He even called me later that day to be sure i knew that he felt like this was a great choice and to sign her up tomorrow!!!! WTH?? lol. It was quite funny because i was in the middle of filling out the paperwork they gave me!! lol. I told him. Dad, Im way ahead of you!!! Paperwork is almost complete.. i just need the money and ill turn it in tomorrow! (which was today) So, She is ALL signed up for Sept.!!!!! Im sooo excited!!!!! I just know Melanie will be fine! She is sooo ready! Not only will this help her get use to what school is about and learn more but she can do it away from mommy and the big plus. away from little sister!! :O) And for me.. i can get some one on one time with miss Abby! :O) Im soo excited..i cant wait! lol i think i said that already! HA!

Milk in a cup-

Well, enough about Melanie.. Little Miss Abby, my now 18 month old. -sigh- She is such a handful.. but can always brighten up your day with that gorgeous smile she has! :O) Well, Last week i was going cold turkey with taking the bottle away! lol. well, by the end of the week. we gave it back! LOL. Hubby convinced me that she is just not ready. after about 4days of no bottles. She was the most crabbiest, crankiest, fussiest kid on the block! She will drink water and juice from a sippy cup. but not milk. I have a feeling that she relates milk to the bottle..because thats all shes had for 1yr and 1/2. So when i give it to her in a sippy, any kind of sippy, tried them ALL, its like giving us soda in a sports bottle or something you normally wouldnt drink it out of.. ya know.. very awkward. and she refused and i mean REFUSED to drink it in the cup. she would ask for milk and i would offer it in a cup.. once in a while shes get a sip but then shed get upset and throw the cup. lol. it was a nightmare. -sigh- but.. it is my fault for not taking it away sooner. So for now.. she still has her bottle.. I hate it. but im gonna try giving her the carnation instant breakfast stuff in a cup and call it something else and see if that will help transition her to drink milk in a cup. so. yes. The KID got her way. I really didnt want to argue with hubby about it, it wasnt worth it. But it will be done.. i still have faith!! :O)

new phone-

LOL. well, we still have not gotten a new phone. It was actually a great thing that the store was closed that mothers day weekend when we went. Because it wasnt but days later that hubby came to me saying they are launching a new smartphone that is suppose to rock! so.. we went to the store to get more details and pricing.. we left sooo excited!!!! :O) So we decided to wait for the Evo 4g. which just launched this month. i have heard great things about it. anyhow. We will have to wait for just a bit longer though because the mattresses for melanie bed were a liitle more than we hoped so we had to use our phone money to pay for it, so until we can save up again then we will go get it!!! im soo excited!!! I can finally FB on my phone!!! and text like other people!! ha ha! love it! im still excited!! hopefully by next month it will be in my hands!!! :O)

well, im sure i have more but will stop here.. till next time!!!
BTW we are suppose to go to Port Aransas in JULY with the inlaws!! finally get to take the girls to the beach for the first time!! SOOO EXCITED!!!!! yay!
hugs to all! - Deb

whats really on my mind..

2010-05-08T06:08:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone!

well, your probably wondering why its taken me so long to blog.. well. Alot has happened!! so let me start!

disconnected: well, first off, my computer decided to fail.. yes.. i knew it was about that time.. but it was crashing and restarting and doing again and again.. weird i know. well, every time i took it to my dad to "fix" it.. it worked just FINE for him! yes.. very weird and frustrating.. so, now i have it back sitting under my desk.. im on a borrowed laptop for now.. I will be getting a new laptop in the next week thankfully!! it is a gift from my inlaws/SIL for my hubbys birthday and my mothers day combined. :O) so im excited about it! its been a long time coming.

Yet, for a week and a half that i did not have a computer.. i was going stir crazy!! yes.. i didnt know what to do with myself during naptimes or in the evening.. the computer is the only thing i have right now that connects me to the outside world besides my measly cell phone. so.. the week went by very slow for me but i did however get much done around the house. lol. go figure!

whats really on my mind right now:

potty training: well, as you know i have tried doing this with my almost 3 yr old Melanie. She would outright refuse to just sit on the potty let alone use it. so i left it alone for a bit in hopes that maybe ill have a miracle happen and she'll just do it on her own. well.. no.. not quite. This past monday we had no plans so, i decided to try the big girl panties AGAIN.. lol. see if she would even grasp the idea of feeling wet or feeling the urge of needing to pee. well, i have to say.. i am still in shock! yes.. the child decided that the accidents she had all morning wasnt fun. so, by lunchtime.. my child was running to the potty!!! and staying DRY!! WTH??? I am still in complete shock because honestly, i didnt think she would want to do it, or care if she was wet. But the child loved the big girl panties! well, I decided to bring out her other potty into the living room and low and behold!!! no more accidents!!!! at least not on the floor! :O) i was sooo proud of her!! she finally earned all those potty prizes that have been sitting in bathroom prize basket and by tuesday... i had to go do a prize run!! thats how great she did! she was sooo excited!! so pretty much all week we didnt really see our friends for playgroup because of the potty training..i didnt want to confuse her. dont get me wrong..she is not an expert yet.. for some reason yesterday she kept forgetting to pull down her panties when going to sit on the potty. lol. but i was still proud she ran and sat on it and did it "in" the potty, even if she wet her panties doing it. ha! im still so proud of her.

So, now the dilemma is that we need to start transitioning her to a "big girl' bed. so that she can start getting up to use the potty at night... which is a huge step i think to tackle.. And a little too much for me to grasp right now. -sigh- see, she still sleeps in her "crib" . not because i dont trust her or that we are being lazy about it.. no.. her bed converts, its a 4 in 1 . We had decided, before this potty buisness got going strong, that by her 3rd birthday we would convert it to the toddler bed.. well, you see.. she is very tall. we get that comment "ALOT". And knowing she will be hitting a growth spurt again, we are figuring maybe it would just be best to convert her bed to the full size that it can make. skip the toddler bed... so that way she will have just one transition and not "confuse" her by too many changes. So, first off, we need to order the conversion rails, which my mom opted to buy, next look and price mattresses and i was told by a great friend to get a good one because they regreted the one they bought for their daughter because at the time they were just concerned about price.. so yeah.. great info for us newbie mattress buyers especially since price is a biggy for us! :O) and then the ultimate change.. room theme.. -sigh- . My child keeps asking for a princess Tiana bed! which i dont mind.. the problem im having is that im afraid 6 mos from now she wont be "into" Tiana anymore. So.. i dunno. my mom wants to buy her the bedding for her room, she just wants to know which one.. and all the diff ones ive shown melanie, she just says "yeah" . so of course she likes it.. but is it what she'd really really want?? i have some ideas of my own for my situation but it would take alot of time and searching for specific things.. not sure i have that much time..so we will see what happens.. i was looking around her room last night and i got a bit sad that she is not my little baby anymore. :O( the themed room i set up for her before she was born will be sadly taken down soon. I am soo not ready for this big girl transition. :O( But i know she is and that makes me happy. :O)

btw i did end up buying an ipod dock for melanies room.. it has worked great with one exception, it made the ipod freeze on a screen and we messed up the setting it was on.. so she had to go one night without music while we tried to reset it. that was a nightmare! stupid ipod! it had it play all night and battery had to die so i could recharge it on the computer for it to get back to the main menu.. i was told that you can take the battery out to reboot it, but i couldnt see where to open it from on my nano.. o well. its fixed now and thats all that matters..

Mother's day:

well, i WAS looking forward to it, till it came.. it wasnt a very special day for me, but i kinda expected that much. I really cant go into it with more detail but lets just say.. it wasnt what we all had expected.. and by the end of the day i was soo ready for it to be over with. I did get a dozen roses from my hubby last minute.. he felt bad because we couldnt look at phones on saturday.. but it was a nice gesture. :O) He makes me happy no matter what. I love him!

A new phone:

Well, for mother's day i wanted a new phone.. not necessarily a fancy one but a better one. My hubby however wanted to look into getting an iphone depending on price..if it would only be a lil more than what we pay now.. but no.. it would be another $100 a month.. we were both not willing to do that... since we are trying to pay off my van already.. that $100 a month would be better used for that. so we were gonna look into maybe a touchscreen phone with our provider..or even a blackberry.. everything in the end would have to be decided on price. so i am kind of already with a mindset that its not gonna happen.. less disappointment for me in the end..
but im still hopeful, especially since my hubby wants a nice new phone too! :O) so saturday was gonna be the day to go see the phones!! we were both excited.. lol. till we finally got there.. at 8:30pm.. they were closed!!! yep.. we were kinda stunned.. but for some reason.. i knew.. i knew it wasnt gonna happen. lol. just my luck. anyhow.. for some reason my hubby was more pissed about it than i was. i kinda just dismissed it like.. o well, we'll have to come back another day.. but he was very upset. so i dunno. im thinking thats a good sign? lol. that i might just get a new phone afterall.. but well see.. only time will tell. :O) staying positive!! good things come to those who wait! i've always believed that.

anyhow.. thats whats been up lately... im sure i have more.. i couldve written a whole book on my disconnection with the world! lol. but i kept it short and sweet. thanks for following.. im sure there will be more later!!! till then! hugs- deb

The memories will last forever!

2010-04-05T20:44:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone! Well, another wonderful holiday has come and gone.. but the memories will last forever! :O) Thank you to all the comments i recieved via FB for my last posting.. i really was very sad and emotional but having such great friends helps me cope. thank you again!

A couple of things:

First off, I was able to take my girls to get pictures taken in the bluebonnets this yr. It was really great.. you dont realize how beautiful our state flower can be until you drive everywhere trying to look for a safe place to stick ur kids in them for pictures! lol. seriously though.. the nature of it is really beautiful.. really had us stopping to smell the flowers and enjoying the moments. :O) Thanks to my great friend Sherry whom even though she has a broken toe from a few days prior, offered to help me by taking the beautiful pictures and finding the safe place where she took her daughter. What a trooper! Hugs to you Sherry! The pictures turned out soo beautiful!!

Second, thursday we had an Easter egg hunt with our playgroup and i was super excited that my hubby took the day off to spend the day with us there! boy o boy did he get to walk in my shoes for the morning.. trying to be social, eat, watch two kids and help them on the playground etc... lol. it was nice that i was actually able to hold a conversation for once. Melanie had the best time hunting for eggs!! and Abby was curious but not a completely active participant but she found one she really liked to hold and shake. lol. The girls were nice and tired that day! It really was a great day.

By Easter sunday, however, we tried doing an egg hunt in the morning in our back yard and mel picked up maybe 8 eggs and decided to head straight for the playset. lol. poor thing hadnt really played in the backyard in a LONG time! last weekend hubby and i went outside and pulled weeds during naptime on saturday and sunday.. boy was it a jungle out there!! crazy! but it looks 100% better.. its not quite where we'd like it to be but sooo much better after fertilizing and watering. :O) We even moved the playset to a better spot in the yard, im very pleased with it all.. and so are the girls! fun fun!! At least we got them pretty tired, i was soo anxious about how nap was gonna go because we had to put them down for a nap earlier than usual in order for us to get to my moms by 4. (usually they nap till 5) naps went perfectly!! of course there was some downside to it but it worked out. Saturday night both girls were up at diff. times of the night.. mel got up crying from a nightmare, screaming and shaking.. i was able to hold her and comfort her and she went back to bed with no problems.. abby on the other hand was having breathing issues.. from her allergies.. she kept coughing gunck and we at first though she was hot in her pj's so we changed her into some different ones and gave her a fresh diaper, we thought maybe she had an uncomfotable burp that stubbornly didnt want to come up earlier.. but no.. she seemed very content just being held by us, grasping on tightly with her fingers and legs. poor thing..we were soo tired.. We finally decided to give her saline spray and zyrtec.. and boy did that help.. she finally went back to sleep. we were ALL soo tired in the morning but i forced everyone to get up at regular times because of the early naps they would need. So the Lord worked his ways with us by not having everyone get much sleep that night but he knew what he was doing because the rest of the day went well. We had a great time with my mom, my inlaws and other relatives. Too bad my dad missed it. o well. they called me btw later that evening just to tell me happy easter thank you for calling (i left a message earlier since they didnt answer) and said, oh we have the girl's Easter baskets so we hope to see you soon so you can get them.. LMAO!! they are funny if they think we are gonna RUSH over there for a silly basket of stuff we probably dont need. They could have just sent the baskets over to my moms with my brothers that visited them earlier in the day... but no! lol.

Another thing:

Jennifers reply i was waiting on,

well, I messaged my brother back to see if he could tell me why i hadnt heard back from her yet. and he told me that she had been very busy and had not been able to get online lately but was meaning to reply back... boy was I relieved!!! I figured that was a good sign, because he could have told me worse right? lol. so i waited patiently for her reply.. I did finally get one and apparently her internet wasnt working right so she kept it short.. but basically told me she appreciated me telling her my feelings and that it must have taken alot for me to do that and that she would love to try and make a friendship! :O) I was such a happy camper! yay.. i felt like everything is finally right for a change. i did pray like a crazy woman though .. it was worth it for me right now to let go and embrace what could be. :O) I did see her on sunday and it just felt right.. yeah know.. although i didnt really get a chance to have a conversation much.. she was busy wrangling her boys and i was busy making sure my girls were ok too and the rest of the family. Baby steps. anyhow..just wanted to update you on that.

One last thing before i finish.. im sure ive posted it on FB before but not here.. but I am having the hardest time finding a CD player that will repeat a CD. Melanie sleeps with music on at night on a CD player, i found at target.. it was the only inexpensive one i could find..remember im on a tight budget.. ok.. so i took back the first one i bought and exchanged it, thought i could find something a little pricer maybe a better brand, nope.. they dont repeat!! im serious.. i cant even find a cd walkman type thing that does it. at one point i thought how hard could it be to find something so simple.. apparently i didnt realize that something so simple as a repeat button is no longer a "standard" button. i then thought about maybe getting one of those ipod docks ? i think thats what they are called. (man i am soo not in tune with the new gadgets for it) so.. im looking online and i realize.. i have an older version of the ipod nano.. im now thinking.. great..they probably dont make anything compatable for my now seems like POS ipod nano. :O( but im not gonna pay big $$$ for a newer version that i wont know how to use because i wont probably ever use it but to have melanie sleep with the music thats playing.. all because i cant find a stupid CD player with a repeat button that will last longer than a month before it starts skipping and messing up! -sigh- do you see where im going with this? very frustrating.. so. im off to target tomorrow.. to again return the second cd player.. melanie hasnt slept well since it doesnt work now.. so i cant afford to waste time getting a replacement.. -sigh- anyhow.. im hoping the sales people in the electronics dept can help me figure something out.. taking the ipod nano with me.. cross ur fingers i bring something not too over priced home.. that will work and last longer than a month. heck! if i dont find a replacement..i am willing to buy your old CD boombox (as long as its not too big) that has a repeat button or some sort of loop function for the CD to play continuously!! lmk.. im serious!! thanks everyone!

Im out! Have a good one! hugs- deb

A bit on the Sad Side..

2010-03-28T20:31:00.001-07:00

Hi Everyone,

I have had sooo much on my mind these past two weeks and a lot of emotions that run deep crept up on me.. so its been a very emotional 2 weeks for me.
A week ago
Emotional number 1:
I decided to let go of my awful past of "not being close" to new family members. and before you think deborah's such a mean person.. let me try to explain my reason for "not being close". First and formost.. In my family's past.. I have had a brothers girlfriend whom not only wrecked my credit by purchasing a car (fraud) under my name.. (she kinda had the same name and my mom address) but also beared a daughter with my brother who is no longer living (she drowned at the young age of 1) . If that isnt enough heartbreak... i can go on.. The year i was finally getting married to my long time boyfriend (my now husband), my two brothers decide they were both gonna have kids AND get married too before me.. and what happens.. both my brothers are divorced and neither have custody of my neices and nephews.. SO yes.. I have yet to be the AUNT i have wanted to be, especially since i dont ever get to see them.. with the exception of my neice Marcela whom gets along great with melanie now and i try to take mel to see her every other sunday when she's with my brother. anyhow. I had gotten pretty damn close to my then new SIL's. One caused soo much drama and heartache with not allowing our family to see the kids and so on.. i was just torn.. too much for me to handle. The other, her family hated our family.. we have yet to understand why, they just would not be nice, ever. it was very creepy. and so that SIL when they divorced didnt give us problems but she completely just cut us off. Well, after that of course both my brothers have dated.. and dated.. and dated.. and they expect me to just freaken have my arms wide open to all of them.. hell no! My brother Ruben dated Sylvia for more than a yr. i was nice to her.. i liked her alot. but i refused to get "close" because i felt like it wasnt gonna last.. they were off and on all the time and i just didnt want to deal with any of it. and well. sad to say it didnt work out after almost 2-3 yrs. Anyhow.. My lil brother Mike suddenly got married last yr to Jennifer.. i think i met her twice. yep. well. again. I am not trying to make enemies here.. in my head.. im protecting myself from heartbreaks. I also tend to come across not very nice in the meantime..which i dont realize till its done. :O( anyhow. I was very happy to hear they have been doing well, very happy.. which is what i hoped for my brother..someone that would make him happy and in turn he may grow up.. anyhow.. we recently found out through facebook.. (yeah.. not a cool way to announce it) but that they are expecting a baby. Not trying to sound negative but i was sad at first about it. very sad. because here i am trying to "not get close" to anyone for the sake of heartbreak and being unsure what the future holds for this couple.. (she has two older boys from another marriage, actually his old friend mind you) and then i hear of a baby on the way..because of the past i was unsure what to do, what to feel, how to react, very lost and emotional. all of the bad things that happened with my neice, and my others all came flooding back.. what if they divorce? what if they wont even let me see the baby? what if? what if? what if? A baby makes a huge impact in people's lives.. that baby will be someones sibling, neice/nephew, grandchild, etc.. and all i could think about was all the heartbreak our family has been through and what we would have to endure again if it doesnt work out. Do u blame me? Well, i prayed about it.. what should i do, say, feel etc. and i had to listen to my heart. My heart was telling me to just let the past go and celebrate what will be. Because we dont know what will happen. My heart wants to open up.. I hate feeling soo seperated from family.. Im tired of the drama. So.. i did it. I wasnt sure what exactly to say.. but some kind of start is better than no start. So i decided to send her a message on FB (i dont have her number) anyhow. I opened my heart to her and congratulated her and tried to explain why i distance myself. Of course, i dont expect her to just be ok with my message but i was hoping for at least a reply of sorts.. even if she just told me "no thanks" at least i know i put myself out there and i left it up to her what she would like to do from here. i opened the lines of communication. Well, after a few days i got very emotional.. not realizing what was bothering me. my husband asked me whats wrong.. apparently i was soo frustrated by it that it was showing.. well, Jennifer never replied back.. oh i forgot to mention.. i also sent a message to my brother about it and he understood.. we were all good by the next day and even he told me that he would like jen and I to be close...so i was very happy about that. but i realized i was sad because i havent heard from her.. its been a week.. im feeling better about it after my BFF Jessie talked to me about it.. I just want to know what the next step is gonna be..
so thats one thing on my emotional rollercoaster...

Saturday
Emotional number 2:
Well, what can i say.. Easter is coming! yep.. we dread the family holidays nowadays.. not because of the holiday itself.. we love those.. its the dreaded.. are u coming? when r u coming? well what time? etc etc.. from MY side of the family.. MY divorced parents do NOT make my life easy when it comes to the kids. Have i mentioned before how i HATE having divorced parents? well i do.. sometimes when ive had enough.. i wish i was adopted. Yes..because they sometimes give me soo much grief over nothing. they drive me crazy! anyhow. the dreaded holidays become house hopping days.. i hate it! with a passion. Alot of my fellow moms are not from here and dont have family here so they dont know how annoying it is to have to house hop or deal with the drama of sharing time evenly.. (yeah annoying).. sometimes i wish i could move away! but in reality.. i couldnt.. they may drive me crazy but i love them too much.
Anyhow.. My mom recently moved to a new house and we thought for the sake of all of us who have kiddos, it would be nice to just have Easter at one house! NO HOUSE HOPPING!!! yay!!! well. My divorced parents do get along great.. however.. my dad is so stubborn. i could never understand why my mom would get so irritated with him.. but i soo get it now! Well, i called my step-mom yesterday to see if they were gonna join all of us at my moms for Easter.. well. she tells me.. well, everyone was ok with it except your father.. and well.. what he says goes.. so we will be having Easter here at our house like every year.. He says he wants to stick with their tradition. ( ok.. just got my heart broken again.. ) i had to nicely get off the phone before my voice got all sobby.. Now.. hear me out. These are the ones who always comment to me that "we" are strangers and that they NEVER see us.. and they get all upset that the girls dont really warm up to them... well DUH!!! they are never around! I have tried to set up dates to see them.. no, because they want to get together when its naptime!! when its convient for them! oh its saturday.. thats the day i sleep in.. (must be nice) but they wont get up at 9 or 10am so we can hang out at the park for a lil bit? oh! and spring break was last week.. guess what? they were BOTH off.. did they even bother to make plans with us??? NO! But my FIL DID! We took the girls to the zoo and the train.. and we had a blast!
Let me just tell you something real quick.. before melanie was born i have always felt that My dad was gonna be the one to be there for my daughter.. because his parents were not there for us.. i thought because he was out of a job at the time that he would come by and visit melanie and I more.. wrong! Everything i had anticipated from my father as a grandpa.. has not happened. nope. I have been so deeply disappointed in him in this regard. I have told my husband several times how much it means to me that HIS parents have Loved the girls and have wanted to be with the girls since day 1. It has been for me very unexpected, i could not ask for better grandparents for my girls.
Anyhow.. back to the phone call.. I broke down crying because i had high hopes that we could all just be a big family and get to enjoy the holiday with everyone without worrying about time, naps, house hopping. Well, before i had hung up i told her well. i guess we wont be seeing you then because we wanted to share the holiday with everyone at one place and since you wont be there, we will. ( not in those exact words but my point got across) well, she then told me well, we didnt see you all last yr anyway.. well no you didnt.. because we took melanie to see disney on ice that evening.. we werent house hopping! after all thats said and done..Dont actions speak louder than words? when you dont attempt to even call us or make plans with us, doesnt that tell me something? Maybe not that you dont care, but that you dont care enough, that we must not be very important to you? Traditions, Seriously? These take priority over your own sons and daughters and grandkids? Tell me im wrong??? How can it not break my heart that the one man that i have looked up to for soo long.. can disappoint me soo much? He did call me later that evening but i didnt answer.. i was knew i would get all choked up about it.. im not ready to tell him how i feel. But he said..it we make over to his house great, if we dont, we'll see you another time then. we have to make hard decisions. Now, when i heard this message im not sure if he was saying that his decision was hard or MY decision for not going is hard? and let me tell you.. if he thinks my decision was hard.. it wasnt. when they told me they are more concerned about traditions.. thats when i was like " WELL SCREW YOU!" yes.. in my head thats what i was thinking.. because if you cant even make an effort to be with us and make it a win win for all.. then yes SCREW YOU and your lousy boring traditions.. WE will be making wonderful memories and you will miss them because I have my own family now and i dont need your traditions.. we get to decide what WE want to do whether you want to be apart of it or not. You will be the one missing out on your grandkids. I refuse to drag my girls to see someone that doesnt even TRY to make plans with us. I refuse to do what you did with us and drag us to your parents house that could care less if we were there. If you want to keep that tradition and be like them so be it.. you will find yourself very lonely and old.
I know what you must be thinking of me now.. whoa.. deb can be a real bitch.. well YES. i can be. When you mess with my family and my girls.. watch out! but you know.. this is just how i feel right now.. this is what im thinking right now.. it may not be in a week or so.. but for right now.. i am just overwhelmed with emotions and im stunned that my father is being like this. seriously, do you blame me? I tell you, if its not one thing its another with my family.. I sometimes dont know how I was the one who came out of that divorce with a good head on my shoulders.. i guess the want of soo much better for yourself can really motivate someone. well, im done.. all this wore me out. I have lots of tissues by my side and im sniffling. :O( O well. We will make the best of it and come out better than we did going in because my girls are worth it. Sorry if this was a bit on the sad side.. but i needed to get this off my chest soo bad! thanks for listening.
hugs- deb

New adventures.. New news

2010-03-14T19:41:00.000-07:00

Well hello everyone.. Its been about a month since my last blog.. thankfully this blog is a bit on the happier side than my last one... previously my two girls were very sick with a bug. they finally got over it after almost 2 weeks.. and unfortunately we had abbys next weight check that following monday.. yeah.. the doc thought her scale was wrong until we told her she just got over a 2 wk bug..so she was gonna be very underweight since she wasnt eating much or drinking milk with all the vomitting. anyhow.. we had to reschedule for this month.. We went this wed. and she was on track at the avg weight.. it was the vaccine time again.. so she got 2 this time.. and her height was 97%. very tall lil girl is what the doc kept saying. anyhow.. she also told us it was time to remove the "Bottle". yeah.. so not happening.. lol

Sippy cup adventures..
our first day attempting to remove the bottle completely was such a no go! my Abby is so strong willed that she refused it and threw it. The doc obviously told us we have to be strong and just allow her to hate it..etc.. but have it near her so that when she realizes shes thirsty, she'll try it. well.. Abby did try it.. if you want to call it that.. it was on her lips for 1/2 a sec. and then she'd throw it again. lol. she went all day with no milk, water, or juice. she didnt get a bottle till bedtime.. i didnt want her to wake up hungry in the mddle of the night. so i gave it to her..

day two.. i did the same.. except we went to target and then went to the park (unplanned). where she decided.. this was the day she was gonna finally WALK! on her own! yep.. she FINALLY allowed me to let her go.. from that finger grip she has on me. lol.. she walked and walked and walked!! it was soooo very exciting!! there i was a proud happy mommy! i called hubby to tell him the news.. he was soo happy too. the only one who could care less was of course.. her big sister.. lol who was too busy kicking the new balls we had just bought and trying to get my attention.. lol. i was right there in the field! lol. i was just so darn happy abby walked on her own.. and not just 4-10 steps.. she was everywhere.!!! I was in heaven..:O) back to the sippy.. since we were all out running and playing..when we got home i "caved" lol. i was afraid she was gonna get dehydrated from all that walking since she didnt have any drink all morning. anyhow.. she slept well for nap :O) and didnt care for the sippy the rest of the evening either.

day 3 was baptism day.. so we didnt even bother with sippys. we needed to be sure she was fed and full of milk that morning.. and since she'd been up since 7am! (crazy) we were hoping she wouldnt be all fussy during the ceremony since it was at 11am. it went well.. :O) we are all just glad we finally got around to do it. so..the sippy was pretty much forgotten!

day 4 lol.. no sippy today. daylight savings..church.. lunch.. nap.. it was just go go go today that we didnt even bother with sippys.. of course this week will be different.. since life will be slowed down a bit from the weekend.. even though its spring break.. doesnt mean we're gonna be out in the streets. but we'll see what happens.
so the adventure will continue.

As for miss melanie..
potty training.. ha ha ha.. whatever.. i pretty much gave up on this for now. we started making her wear pull ups.. but she still just goes in them like a diaper.. so i havent bothered lately.. i think im just waiting for abby to uncling to me and for mel to "want" to do it on her own.. she had been watching a potty movie we borrowed from the library.. and it was great. she loved to watch it and we were able to use it to get her motivated to sit on the potty and not be scared of it.. but unfortunately we had to return it.. so there went that! i had even bought her a doll that pees.. that kinda worked too but then i got busy with abby being clingy..so i couldnt spend much time with mel and the doll in the bathroom with out abby getting upset. but i think it would have helped too.. maybe well do it again once abby is really walking and wont need me much anymore. (heres crossing my fingers!)

new things:
I decided that melanie needs to start using "real toothpaste" and learn to use the lil dixie cups to rinse and spit. so we've done this for about 3 days.. its been great actually..morning and at bedtime. shes still kinda drinking the water a lil. but shes getting better.. im very proud of her being able to do it on her own.. she still likes me to help though.. which i dont mind. (she was using the training toothpaste for a long time now) i got abby a big girl toothbrush too. she liked it very much! which is awesome! yay! so the training toothpaste abby will use instead. :O)

i tried getting melanie to wear flip flops.. lol.. no go. :O( they were super cute on her but she refused to walk in them.. so i had to return them. o well i tried.

right now melanie is stuck on 'Aladdin' .. the movie. she never really cared for it before but i think she likes princess jasmine and the monkey. lol so right now thats all she wants to watch. although today she kinda watched the beginning of Wall-E with her cousin Marcela. and she wanted to watch it.. luckily my brother gave me a copy..so we'll see if she'll watch it again.

On to me:

I must talk about me a lil. its MY blog. ha ha. anyhow.. this past tuesday the day before abbys well check/weight check up.. i wake up, jump in the shower, and as i was showering.. i noticed my skin.. i FREAKED! I was covered in red blotchy itchy spots from chest to ankles!! now.. about a month ago i noticed like 2 or 3 single spots around my thighs and just added lotion since they were itchy and dry.. and figured it was nothing since i wasnt having any other reactions or spreading.. thinking it would eventually go away.. well no.. it decided to spread on that tuesday.. i call my hubby and he's not freaking out but more worried because he thought maybe i had chicken pox or measles.. but i told him ive already had that as a child. anyhow.. i told him id call the derm to see if she could fit me in on wed after abbys checkup..since its right across the street... "God Bless them for allowing me to get an appt!!!!" I think she heard the worry in my voice. anyhow.. the Derm told me it looks more like Eczema.. but she noticed some sopts on my arm that looked like broken blood vessels.. geesh! so she had me get some labs done and told me she should have the results in by friday.. friday is gone and no word.. so hopefully she'll call tomorrow with results! she did give me a steroid cream to use and told me i need to moisterize daily!!! after showers! (seriously who has time for this?? is what i thought) but apparently i need to just do it for my skins sake. :O( just putting on the steroid cream everywhere takes me forever!! not joking... so.. im not happy about having to use lotion all the time now. what doesnt help is that im PMSing right now.. yep.. good ol aunt flo likes to visit when its so not a good time. -sigh- so i noticed today that my legs looked swollen, they felt heavy this morning but i didnt really pay any attention since i was up again at 7am. so..i dont know if its the monthly doing that is causing me to swell or the steroid cream.. and i havent seen much difference in the spots all over me.. they are still itchy and blotchy and red. :O( but its only day 3.. i need to give it time to work its magic right. im suppose to have a two week appt set up so she can see if its getting better. but i still need to see when i can do that.. -sigh- i gotta work with hubs schedule.

another thing that ive done lately is started to wear my reading glasses all day. I have told dear hubby for over a yr now that i need to get my eyes checked because im having issues reading again even with my glasses.. (they are about 6-7yrs old) I had also been getting really irritated more than usual when i cant read crap where ever i am because i forgot to bring my glasses.. so so far my glasses have worked out yet i still have problems seeing when i read.. so. my next goal to accomplish is going to the eye dr and getting a better prescription.. i just hate having to "pick" a style of glasses.. because i never know what looks good on me. and since i have a feeling ill be wearing them all the time (my old age kicking in) lol.. they better look good because they are so freaking expensive that i cant afford to get another pair. those of you that wear glasses know what i mean.. -sigh- and some of you are probably thinking.. deb just get contacts! uh.. no. The thought of sticking something in my eye everyday freaks me out.. i cant even watch other people put them in their eyes. so nope.. so out of the question. :O(

well... im gonna call this blog done for now. till next time!!! Happy Spring Break everyone!!!
hugs- deb

oh yeah.. many of you were wondering why i was so sad the other day.. well.. not too many of you know what my family has been through regarding my brothers and their ex-wives and us not being able to see their kiddos.. well.. breaking news: Im gonna be an aunt again. im just not real sure "how" to feel about it. I want to be happy and excited but a part of me is cringeing at the thought that this is not gonna be a good situation later down the line.. like dr phil says.. you can predict future behavior from past behavior. :O( and i really dont want to be hurt again in this manner.. you just have to know what ive been through with this type of family ordeal to understand my reason for being "unsure" of how to feel. anyhow.. just thought id add this.

One of the most difficult moments being a mother of two

2010-02-08T11:49:00.000-08:00

Hi Everyone, -SIGH- it has been a very long 5 days for me as of yet. And I just need to let all my feelings out.. so here it is.

I dont know where to start.. well.. put it this way.. my kids have been sick since wednesday night.. almost around midnight. mel started throwing up everywhere.. what a long night. so then i was worried about abby.. more so because she ate the same food as mel and abby doesnt roll over. so i was soo scared that if it was what they ate.. she could choke on her throwup in the middle of the night!!!! so i heavily monitored her all night.. had a difficult time sleeping because of my anxiety from it. In the morning..as i was just trying to relax and take a small snooze (thinking all was good last night ) i hear abby coughing ... then i hear gagging!!! OMG!! I sprinted the her room and she was CHOKING!!! i turned her over and patted her back!! I was in panic mode! tears coming out of my eyes.... yelling are u ok? are u ok?? (like if she was gonna answer me) all i could do was hold her tight in my arms and cry... the thought of me being asleep when this occured just scared the crap out of me! thank the good lord that i was ready for it. prepared all night for the unthinkable.. and it happened... I was a wreck..calling hubby to let him know what happened.. crying to get him to come home because the thought of having two kids throwing up simultaniously and me not know who to help first without throwing up myself...just left me very scared and alone. well, he came home but it wasnt till later that afternoon.. I myself started to feel crappy.. nausiated.. but i had to stay calm.. for my girls.
i have had a few comments from my mom friends about my situation with the sick kids.. asking if ive taken them to see a dr. or why dont u do this or that... but the truth is.. some of these moms dont have TWO KIDS. They dont realize how difficult it is.. not just when they are healthy but when they are both sick...throwing up sick..crapping their pants sick... cant feed them food or milk sick.... cant take them out anywhere sick... -SIGH- Seriously.. ITS HARD! those of you moms who only have one kiddo.. and think your life is hard... you dont know how good you have it... those that the only issue you are having with your one kid is naptime... you dont know how good you have it. or is the issue potty training? or discipline? you dont know how good you have it with one kid. With one kid..you have all the time in the world to focus on them.. you can just pack up and go.. go to the dr. go to the store.. where ever.. with two... nope.. not so easy. one is either always wants u to hold them and your trying to get the others diaper changed.. or one is asking for help or needs something and the other gets all pissed off because you have to get up for a min and leave their side. frustrating..im telling you.. completely frustrating. SO imagine all this AND them being SICK! YES.. TAKES A TOLL ON A MOM! your helpless.. your tired.. your pissy.. you just want to get away for awhile.. and you cant. you cant. you just cant. WHY? because your kids NEED you. And our job as a mom is to be there for them.. So as i put one kid down to get the other some juice... she cries and screams and tears... -sigh- what do you do.. i have to let her cry.. mommy has to pee.. i have to let her cry... mommy needs to change a diaper.. i have to let her cry. It breaks my heart sometimes to hear her cry.. but mommy needs a break.. And for me right now.. it sucks..because when hubby gets home all i want to do is shower and crawl into bed.. BUT THEY WANT MOMMY!!!!! double -sigh-. mommy doesnt get a freaking break..i have no idea why they both decided that mommy is gonna be the one they all want only.. so poor daddy.. trying to help me get a break.. and for no fault of his own.. they dont want him to help them. :O( so im stuck. and im still not eating much anyway that i cant just leave and get me a nice starbucks or a nice ice cream cone or just walk around somewhere.. i cant eat it or drink it anyway. :O(
BTW then hubby gets sick friday night.. yep! GREAT RIGHT!! whoo hoo! mama just doesnt get a break again.. LOL.. yep. story of my life.. lol. luckily by saturday the girls were feeling much much better and we decided to take them to grandmas to give us a much needed break. well, hubby slept the entire time while i cleaned the house.. dishes..vaccum..picked up the mess of toys, swept..etc. glad i did laundry on monday!!! :O) by the time i was done..it was time to pick up the girls. :O( not much of a break for me but i was glad i got that out of the way. Mel got sick on the car ride home though..out of nowhere.. so we all camped out in the living room with her on the couch near a lil trash can that we showed her to use when she felt like throwing up. So, i had to cancel my plans for the 5k run the next morning. it was best i stayed with the family and i still hadnt really eaten..so it was for the best. (thanks my running buddies for understanding!) anyhow.. sunday everyone seemed on the mend again. and we took the girls to grandmas again.. it was superbowl sunday but we dont watch tv..so we just needed a few hrs to get away. we went to walmart and then to TC's for a very small meal and a sprite. :O) it was nice to get away for a bit and not feel all alone.
But for some reason.. this monday morning abby puked on me again.. out of the blue.. took me by suprise.. we were all crying.. me, abby, and melanie (she gets sad when im sad). i almost puked with the nice cheesy smell .. gag me! yuck! luckily that was it so far. so we are back to the mum mums and pedialyte... i dont know what to expect anymore with this bug. how do i know they are all better? because they seemed to be all good and then suddenly 3 days later they puke again. i dunno.. im trying to take it hr by hr. trying to hold myself together..trying to be the best mommy i can be without going crazy. :O) It is one of the most difficult moments i have had being a mother of two so far. colds and flus i can handle.. but throwing up and diarrea takes the cake! I wouldnt wish this sickness on enemies if i had any.. thats how awful and trying it has been. And my friends wonder why i am addicted to the sorority life game at the moment. It gives me something to do and something else to think about when i cant get away. im not "MOM" for a little while. and i can talk to other people about other things besides kids..
Im sorry if most of my blog kinda went in all directions... but i had to let all sorts of things off my chest. I appreciate all my friends and family's help and well wishes for us. It means a lot to me.
here's hoping for a happier blog next time! hugs everyone! - deb

Teachable Moments

2010-01-21T12:54:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone!! I have updates and other things.. lol so here it goes.

First up: Learning...

Well, you may or may not already know i am a certified elementary teacher.. i just have yet to have my own classroom and start my career as a teacher. I had Melanie the summer i was "applying for my first teaching job". It was rough to let that dream go.. but it was and has been for the best that i have been able to stay home with my babies. :O) Anyhow.. because im such a teacher at heart..i am always trying to "teach" my girls things whenever we do things or go anywhere or watch anything... there's always a teachable moment! now that Mel is 2 1/2 she is at the age when learning is soooo valuable... i mean.. she is like a sponge.. taking it all in! Now..i have LOTS of mommy friends who send their kids to MDO or some sort of "school" and i have been told it is awesome.. they get things done at home or shop or whatever it is they need time for while the kids are at "school" I have thought about it.. I have thought it would be a great thing for Mel to get use to the "school" environment and she would be able to play with kids her own age and learn at the same time.. but honestly... I feel like i'd be missing out on her. because i feel like when she's 4 and time to go to school..i will feel like i didnt do my part. i dont know if that makes sense.. I guess because.. back to the teacher thing... I know that I can teach her things and prepare her for the real school. So.. right now.. for me. i LOVE having her with me and abby. and i know she loves it too. And we get to go places together and go play with other kids.. and wake up when ever we want.. and she naps sooo well!!! it may seem selfish in a way.. but i think more to save money and that i can teach her here.. I have already started "teaching" her specific things.. and OMG!! when u think they arent paying attention to you...lol.. THEY ARE!!! I have been writing on our easel the Day and the month and the date.etc.. and everyday we change it... and yesterday out of the blue.. daddy comes home (he didnt notice it before) and he's holdng mel in his arms and points to the easel and asks mel.." what does this say?" and she blurts out. JANUARY!!!! WTH????? I about fell OVER!!! He glares at me like.. wow! and i was just STUNNED!! SHE WAS PAYING ATTENTION!!!!! HOLY CRAP! LOL! she even knew what day it was.. WEDNESDAY!!! the 20th!!!! OMG!! yes!! its THOSE moments.. that i know i am doing my job as a mom and a teacher!! We also sing the days of the week song daily... and i have been trying to help her recognize certain letters that she has trouble with... others she knows with no problem... I have recently started to sing the months of the yr song too. (i still dont know how the macarena tune would go with it.. help! ) i have been using the ten little indians tune. Mel knows her colors.. but she gets green and blue confused..so we work on that EVERY chance we get. She knows her letter sounds.. she still cant sing the abc's alone just yet but she's getting there. :O) seriously.. i am quite proud of what we have accomplished. i try not to overwhelm her with a full blown sit and pay attention thing.. because she's 2 1/2 and is very distractable..especially when abby is all over the place. :O) so yay us on the daily teaching. I just LOVE those moments!

potty:

We still have not gone back to the potty training.. but she will from time to time want to go sit on her potty when mommy needs to use the potty.. so yay for mommy needing to go right? lol Although.. we went to La Cantera today and at the lil play area there.. there was another little girl there and she told mel " why do you still wear diapers?" LOL!! it was great to see the look on melanie's face!!! she was speechless!! you see... Mel is 2 1/2 but she can pass for a 4 yr old , shes soo tall! so the lil girl i knew was much older.. they were just the same height though! Well. after that.. we left.. and i asked mel about it later.. lol. She said.. lil girl doesnt wear pampies? i said, no..the lil girl was wearing big girl panties and uses the potty..thats why she asked you why you were still wearing pampies.. so.. i went on about the whole big girls using the potty and that she needs to try again.. blah blah.. I wish i had a friend with an lil girl that used the potty that would encourage her to not be scared and just do it on the potty!!!! i think if she were to see for herself someone elses lil girl doing it with no problems then she may want to do it to.. like monkey see monkey do.. o well.. it will happen.. i have faith. :O)

Abby:

I talk alot about Mel...lets talk about my lil cutie Abby.. Well.. she had her 12 month well checkup this past monday... she had 4 shots.. but she did fine. she's off the charts in height and her weight was in the 90th % but she had apparently lost 2 oz's since the previous visit. so the pedi was concerned about that.. Im not.. because for a while there we were having lots of trouble getting her to eat table foods because she still gagged on everything. but now shes fine.. she eats goldfish, cheerios, mum mums, those baby biscuits, gerber puffs and ive tried giving her eggs.. she didnt like that.. weenies.. she ate a few bites then decided nah! hamburger meat.. didnt care for it.. pizza crust she liked.. spagetti she liked.. i still have yet to give her other things to try.. baby steps.. cant throw everything at her at once.. so we have to go back to the pedi next month just so she can weigh her again.. (who knew) I have tried to give her sippys and for the most part..she will try it as long as big sister is using her cup too. so.. i still need to give her time on that. She is one happy girl nowadays though. always smiling and hanging on to mommy one way or another.. -sigh- She is still hanging on to us one handed for walking.. and she always wants to do what big sis is doing.. luckily melanie is very nice to sister and HAS learned to share with her. :O) its so nice to see. yesterday i caught them on video..i had walked to the kitchen to get a drink and then i hear all this giggling.. so i got my flip mino and walked over and i got mel playing with abby.. then she reaches over and gives abby a huge hug!!! AWWW!!! it was sooo sweet to see..Abby loves the attention. Abby also loves her new room.. boy she can sleep soo nicely!! It has been bitter sweet to finally... finally sleep 8hrs or more at night! Also.. Abby says "thank you" she waves hi and bye.. and she also says "melanie" lol. then of course the other usual babbles u get . sooo cute!!!! i love it.. She's growing too fast i tell ya!

mom:

ok.. so i wanted to throw in a topic on me.. lol. since its MY blog. ha ha. anyhow. im doing good.. cant complain. I have still been working out and running on sundays.. except for this past sunday and the sunday before (it was too cold, and the other i was too tired) but im getting back on the sunday thing.. i really wish i could go run more during the week.. o well. I am doing a 5k in Feb. with some other mommy friends that i workout with..its for a great cause..it will be my first "official" type run...im very excited about it! We are gonna try and do a run like that once a month.. but we will see how it goes.. things are always changing schedule wise but we are gonna try. :O) I really really want to lose more around the middle where i can see it! so i guess i need to figure out what im gonna do about that and make a schedule for myself and add it to my daily routines. i just gotta do it! I soo want some new clothes.. but i refuse to buy them until im at least 1 or two sizes smaller... im tired of looking like such a frump! im soo girlie and i just dont feel girlie anymore. its a sucky feeling. o well.. only I can make it happen right? ok.. (holding up a bottle of water) Here's to being girlie again!

Well. i guess thats it for now.. thanks for following me.. remember to leave a comment either here or on my FB page where this is posted! I always like to hear what you all think.. hugs- deb

Got my room back.. and potty training.

2010-01-13T21:11:00.000-08:00

HI everyone! Hope you had a great new years! I seriously couldnt ask for a better one... why you ask? well.. for one thing Abby slept ALL NIGHT! and then.. that week we were able to clean out Abby's bedroom and move her crib in! She has slept EVERY night since!!!! omg! the best sleep we have gotten in 2 1/2 yrs! GOD BLESS!! seriously..i miss her but man its soo great to not have to creep around in our room.. i can actually have the light on.. i can do whatever now that she is in her room! its great! it feels weird but in a great way! all of us are just sleeping soo much better! Thanks jessica for getting the monitor for abby's room..its the best thing ever!

Last post i mentioned how sick the girls got.. well.. im not sure if you all know this.. but my baby girl abby was a baby who refused to be held..did not want to sit on your lap..get hugs.. she wanted to be left alone... and well.. at one point i was sad about it..sad that i couldnt give the affection i wanted to give her.. but she didnt want any part of it... UNTIL she got sick! yep.. im not sure its a blessing just yet.. lol. because at one point i had to give up the hopes i had that she would change her mind and want to be held.. etc etc.. i was ok with it and i was moving on. but now.. its like i got a whole new child! Abby wants to be held all the time.. she loves hugs.. She gets upset when i get up to get mel something cause she wants me right there next to her.. she wants to sit on my lap!!!!! Its very different.. I LOVE IT dont get me wrong.. but its just weird that a sickness can get a child to act or respond differently. and im not saying its all about the sickness.. there is probably other things that are contributing to her "needing us". for instance.. walking.. she's been "walking" holding our hands since she was about 7 or 8 months old. and she now will just walk holding one of our hands... for me a sign of her letting go and wanting to balance and walk on her own.. yet.. everytime i try to get her to walk to us or i let go... lol. she squats and sits... every time!!! lol. smart girl. anyhow.. she "needs" us to walk in this case.

I also finally got her to hold her bottle about a month ago! geez! melanie NEVER held her bottle.. she refused! it was easier to get her off the bottle and use a sippy.. Abby.. not so much. i have tried and tried to give her sippys.. lol. she throws the cup and throws a fit. so.. im just gonna give her some time..im in no rush to take the bottle away especially if shes holding it on her own. :O) -sigh-

potty training 101-

ha! well. we did it.. tried anyway.. Melanie has yet to use the potty like a big girl. it was becoming more of a hassle for me.. so i just stopped.. it was making me soo frustrated..it was just best for all of us that i discontinued with it. im in no hurry for mel to be out of diapers but i know she can do it. She has freaked out EVERY time she actually went potty in the potty! i mean freaked! crying and screaming! WTH? I had to hold her down..while hugging her..while trying to tell her its ok.. that it was a great thing and praise her and calm her down... it was tough... once daddy went to work..i couldnt do it with abby screaming in the other room for me.while mel took her sweet time sitting on the potty.. then after too long.. she decides shes done and then once she got to the playroom. she decides to let it go! WTH?? yep.. i was not a happy camper..neither was miss abby. so yeah.. im not doing the potty thing at this point. although ive noticed that mel has been holding her crotch from time to time.. and we are thinking that she is finally "feeling" that she is peeing. thats a good sign right? just wish she would just do it on the potty..-sigh- im sure this will be a subject for a future blog. the journey will continue!

playtent-

Well we finally got the playtent.. and it is fabulous!! it was super easy to set up.. its big! and both girls absolutely love it! I wish they made stuff like that when i was a kid. so i totally recommend the "pacific playtents" very high quality materials and cute!

well., this is all i have time for right now.. besides its late and im tired.. im sure ill blog more another time.. until then... thanks for keeping up with me :O) hugs- deb

December and beyond

2009-12-31T13:23:00.000-08:00

Hi.. i know i know.. finally! well.. its been very hectic around the Ramos household. One thing after another.. One week we stayed home because of the yucky weather.. the following week i booked an appt for portraits for the girls... that was a nightmare! yes.. luckily my sister in law came to help me do it.. it was gonna be a christmas present for hubby and the grandparents.. anyhow..

The portraits:

Lord help me! it was a nightmare..honestly. If it wasnt for auntie Jessica being there..i would have cried the first 2 minutes we got in the room.. Melanie was freaked out and kept asking to open the door and Abby.. well..she wasnt letting go of mommy. Then Mel wouldnt sit on the floor for the pics.. then i couldnt get abby to stop crying everytime i tried to sit them together. or have them hold hands.. I was very shocked to see we actually got some beautiful shots out of it. That poor photographer..im sure she felt bad that the girls didnt like her too much but i think she came in the room not prepared for shy and leary kids..you need to earn their trust first before they will relax. didnt happen.. she didnt welcome them or really say much. but i guess as long as she was snapping any decent pic for us..i appreciated it. never again will i go doing this with out daddy.. complete nightmare. lol

Two days later: we wake up getting ready to go to a cookie swap with a mom group and Melanie sounds funny.. and then she coughs funny.. for a second i was thinking.. we better stay.. but we hadnt gone anywhere for her to get sick all of a sudden.. so we went anyway.. didnt think we'd stay too long but the girls we having a great time.

well.. all was normal when we got home.. had lunch put the girls to nap.. then.. i hear Mel screaming!!! Crying!! i see her standing from the monitor so i ran to see what happened.. well.. poor baby threw up her lunch.. it was everywhere! on the bed, under the bed, on her, on the floor. and she kept throwing up once i got her out.. ugh... it smelled of rotten cheese so bad..i almost puked too.. but i contained myself.. had to stay strong.. yes.. never thought id be ok with cleaning throwup...ever... but i did it and all was fine again.. although she refused to eat after that for almost a week. we had to keep a small trash can next to her at all times..that she used frequently...she couldnt even hold down jello. the cookie swap was a thursday..that friday morning we called to get an appt with the pedi.. no luck. they had us speak to a nurse. she said it sounded like she has a post nasal drip..give her zyrtec and use the cool mist humidifier. we did this.. by sunday she got worse. so daddy took her to the urgent care place to get her checked.. as they waited there..i got up with abby and noticed she is now sick too. yep. (the day before we had her immediate family only birthday party.. so im glad that worked out) but abby had a runny nose and all the phlem to go with it.. we had to stop giving her milk and start her on pedialyte and apple juice to help reduce the phlem.

anyhow.. the urgent care told us mel has a bacteral cold. so we got antibiotocs.. but monday the next day we took her in to see a pedi at our office.. he said it wasnt bacterial..it was a viral cold. and recommened some over the counter meds.. which have helped.. but geez.. who do you believe anymore??? i just wanted my child that hasnt eaten to feel better. we did end up still giving her the antibiotics (just in case) it was rough especially with abby.. she couldnt breathe at night on her back..so i had to go lay on the couch with her on my chest. that was the only way any of us got any sleep. it was hard.

now two weeks later: Mel still has a runny nose and a cough and abby still has a runny nose and a cough too.. but i think now its just allergies kicking in.

having two sick kids is hard... you just want to take all their pain and gunck away.

Abbys first birthday went well. it was a small gathering for lunch at my mother inlaws.. and well. poor melanie was sick and ended up encouraging the guests to leave after she thew up right after the cake was eaten and presents opened. lol. o well.. it was still nice. but im hoping for a nicer party for her next yr. :O) i still can believe she's 1 already!

Fitness goals: i must say.. I have been doing quite well... keeping to my excercising..working out at the gym twice a week, going running every sunday morning, and working out every tuesday with the Aim group at my bff jessie house. honestly need to do more ab work though.. and arms.. but hell.. anything helps at this point. I am very proud of myself. :O) and proud of all the other moms that joined jessie and i on our fitness quest.

Christmas: It was very exciting.. to see Melanie excited about santa and everything else.. i was kinda sad we never put a tree up but i know for sure next yr. Melanie and Abby got more than we expected from everyone.. i had to rearrange the playroom.. now its all princess themed. :O)

I did get my new stove!!! its freaking awesome!! glass top and did i mention soo freaking awesome?? lol. i love it!!! thanks mom and dad ramos!! you all are awesome! the best gift ever!

I also got a new camera.. but i may have to return it.. not sure it does what i was looking for in a camera.. i have been soo busy trying to get the girls a new playtent that i havent talked to my sil jessica about it yet. (she got it for me) yes.. we got mel and abby an awesome princess themed playtent and it freaking tore with in two days. ripped.. so.. because they love it soo much i needed to find a better one..so.auntie jessica is helping out in getting one ordered online for the girls.. yay! they are gonna love this new one better! its bigger and it looks like a lil house. :O) so. if youre looking into a playtent..do not buy "playhut" brand.. they suck! im getting a "pacific playtent" they had great reviews and they have a variety of themed tents/styles. for not too much more than the crappy one i got. and i payed $39.99 for that one! just crap! anyhow..

Melanie and abby got a double sided easel.its awesome! i havent yet popped out the paints but mel already loves it! its dryerase too so i can use it to teach them!! which is an awesome thing!! LOVE IT! thanks Auntie Jessica!!!

Have you noticed? lol I want to mention something.. on most of my blogs i am always thanking Auntie Jessica.. and for good reason too. I have to say.. I dont have sisters.. but. I am very proud to call her my sis (in law). She has been soo supportive.. soo helpful.. soo loving and caring to the girls and to us. We are truly blessed to have such a wonderful person in our life. Jessica.. We love you very much.. Please know that you are never alone.. We are your family and we would do anything for you and we wish you only the best in the years to come. Thank you for all you do for us and the girls.. you have know idea how much you are appreciated and loved. We look forward to having you baptize Abby too. We love you! Thank you Jessica!

A New Year:

well. its that time again.. when we dont get to stay up till midnight and drink champagne and dance the night away and kiss at the stroke of midnight.. nope.. instead its the usual trying to get all the girls in bed at the usual time so we can try and get some sleep before abby decides to wake up and scream.. yes.. a new year. and with lil ones.. honestly..we just cant do what everyone will be doing. i think i can just be hopeful i get a kiss. :O) o well.. there will be plenty of time to do the traditional new yrs eve celebrating when the girls are old enough. I look forward to that. but mainly.. i have to be just thankful for this past year. i still cant believe this year is done! in 6 months i have melanies birthday to plan.. and actually before that.. abby's baptism.. wow! I am up for all the new exciting challenges this new yr brings but i pray it only brings joy. I want to wish everyone a very fun, safe and Happy New Year! Bring on 2010 !!!! I'm ready!

Hope everyone had a wonderful holiday! Happy New Year! hugs-deb

SO much going on!

2009-11-24T11:30:00.000-08:00

Well, its that time of year..busy busy..

Well our garage sale went very well.. I sold most of it! TG! and then my MIL had a garage sale this past weekend, i had given her most of the stuff i couldnt sell to her so she could sell it in a diff part of town.. they did well with it too! YAY! I have some things my friend had given us for abby and I plan on donating that. =o) Share and share alike.

I also had my sale of hairbows and clips at JAC this sunday for the Christmas Extravaganza! I did fairly well.. I think i could have sold more if we had more traffic.. it wasnt very busy but i sold mostly to the owners and their family in the valley. =o) Im hoping we can do that again! i still have a surplus of bows. (if you need any, please contact me) =o) I have holiday clips too! too cute! $3 and less! cant beat that!

on another note: last weekend my washer finally broke! yay! lol. I had the bottom of the barrel type washer and was waiting for this day! lol. We didnt get a front loader, they are way too out of our price range but the one i did choose they didnt have in stock so they offered the upgrade at a discount.. and i told them SOLD!! lol. I love it. its an HE GE profile toploader w/o the agitator and a whole lot bigger than my old one!! LOVE IT!!!

I was told i may get a new stove for christmas from my inlaws but thats not set in stone yet.. but I was super excited about the thought of actually having a new one!! you have to understand the stove i have came with our house and its about as old as my house. (30yrs or so) yep. but since it still technically "works" i havent been able to get a new one. its the ugliest thing in my kitchen next to the dishwasher that i cant use. yes.. living like no one else is rough.. but i know someday i will be living like no one else and will be able to have quality appliances for a better house. ;o) I look forward to that!

As for my girls.. Abby Finally ate something solid.. yes! my 11 month old gags on everything.. even broken gerber puffs.. but she ate a freaking graham cracker!!!!!! WTH?? all this time and finally a breakthough! yet.. she refuses to eat one now. =o( o well. keep trying right? We have officially upgrader her to stage 3 foods.. we will see if she manages.. i pray she does because she's too much of a big girl to not try more chunky foods.

As for melanie, She is such a good big sister.. I also want to say.. she is very well behaved in my opinion..especially out in public. I have seen some very cranky kids while out and about and i just stop and give my girls big hugs and kisses and let them know i appreciate their good behavior. Mel has also been into singing. lol she's been watching the elmos christmas countdown and man.. she just lets her voice go when they sing! its cute! We got video of her dancing and singing to her favorite song on it.. I will have to post on fb!!! its too cute!

As for me..i am still continuing my quest to health! yay! my bff Jessie and i went run/walking on saturday at the nature park across my street..i had never been, it was ok. We did see a lot of things there..lol. its has very hidden trails so you can just imagine what you'd find or see. lol. I have been noticing my clothing fitting looser. yay! i havent weighed myself lately.. probably because ive been soo busy using my new washer!! ha! yet, i have had such a sweet tooth lately.. i either want cookies, chocolate or pie. bad deb! very bad! i know... and im looking forward to thanksgiving!! more for the sweets! and i love sides.. im not much of a main dish eater unless its covered in cheese! lol but yeah.. i love sides.. mashedpotatoes, veggies, mac n cheese, u name it. i probably like it! =o) anyhow..i just need to remember portions..sometimes my eyes are bigger than my tummy!

Im also looking forward to Abigails birthday gathering.. cake! mmm! and celebrating of course! my lil baby is turning 1 Dec. 5th!!! i still cant believe its been that long.. its gone by sooo fast!

Well i better go.. Have a Wonderful Thanksgiving everyone! and if your doing black friday shopping..stay safe! I'll be watching Elmo LIVE that day with hubby and Melanie. (Thanks Auntie Jessica for the tickets! Melanie is gonna LOVE it!)

hugs all!- deb

Baby steps and more

2009-11-05T15:00:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone! I am pleased to announce that i finally made my short goal weight! YAY!! Now for a new goal! I am a believer in baby steps .. so i think another 10lbs will be my new goal! I CAN DO IT!! Dang playgroups are killing me with all the free sweets everyone brings! so HARD to resist! Well, it will take will power and small portions... not wanting to go cold turkey.. that is very hard right now. lol. especially when your body is craving sweets and you KNOW you dont have any around the house. lol. I am also proud to say that as a "beginner" in running again..i ran on the treadmill on monday for 15mins. straight!! wow! I kept a nice pace and i was sweating like a pig! lol. felt good though.. means that i am getting use to running/walking. My BFF Jessie though, my running partner/bff, is on a very strict diet.. not sure how we are gonna be friends this way. ha ha!! na, its all good.. she kinda helps remind me that i need to keep eating healthier and not just eat less. What a great friend to have huh? yep! Thanks Buddy!

On another great note: abby keeps suprising us and is starting to sleep through the night again! TG!!! but its a nice suprise.. we dont expect it.. she had been getting up at 4am. and yesterday and tthid morning she wet her bed.. which is weird because her diaper wasnt soaked..it was as if it leaked out from her waist. o well.. it happens. =o)

Yesterday was not bad but it wasnt great either.. i found out my MIL has a stomach bug..so she couldnt watch the girls, but it just so happened that hubby was picking a jury and didnt get home till almost 8:30pm. so... i was just frustrated that he didnt call or text me sooner so i know what to expect from the evening.. so.i had to hurry and feed two hungry girls and on top of that my oldest, melanie decided to puke up her banana at the table.. at first..i was worried she might have grandmas bug, since they were there on monday night.. but she seemed fine afterwards. and hasnt puked since. so.. all is good there! TG!! plus, i had to cook again when hubby got home so he could eat, then wash dishes, bottles, get baths ready.. yes.. i was fussy, tired, and had a headache that would not go away! i was grateful to finally shower and go to bed.. and abby slept all night and all morning!!!! whoo hoo!! i was a very happy mommy!

I did finally find those gerber biter cookies.. but. abby refuses to put them near her mouth. i guess i just need to keep offering.. im sure the top teeth are still sensitive.

abby's birthday is coming!! yep. and we decided that this year we are just gonna invite immediate family over to our MIL's for lunch and cake. Its just soo close to Christmas and she's too small to know whats going on yet..so. next year we will throw a big party like mel's. As, far as the baptism.. we decided to wait till Jan or feb. because the church wasnt even sure what days they were gonna do it because of the holidays. kinda glad, it really is too much to squeeze in a month.

i am looking forward to Abby walking on her own.. yes. ill miss the crawling baby but man.. she is very very tall compared to older kids! im talking kids that are 3-6mos older! she is as tall as them or taller! crazy! and all the shoes melanie wore when she was walking are too small for my big footed abby! seriously.. wth?? lol. im just glad that i can hand over all the stuff abby never wore to baby Emma (my bff jessie's daughter). =o) Its great to share.

Jessie and her MIL and i are doing a garage sale this saturday.. getting rid of all that baby stuff!! yay!! I still cant believe how much crap i have or had! i am thinking of tagging prices on just a few awesome things that were never worn or only worn once. need to do that tomorrow. ive already got it seperated.

I am soo ready for it to be friday.. you have no idea!

OH!! I forgot to mention how Halloween went! My SIL jessica, melanie and I went to ZOOBOO. thats at the zoo and they have a "safe" event. It was our first time going so we didnt know what to expect.. it was ok. Mel was a bit disappointed that she couldnt see more animals.. since its getting darker sooner..all the cages were pitch black.. you could only really see the birds. She dressed as Cinderella! her favorite princess! and she kept losing her slipper all night! and when we were heading back to the van.. i noticed she wasnt wearing one!OMG! i freaked, not because of the shoe but because the area we were parked in was not paved..it was very rocky and dirty and i was soooo glad she didnt step on any GLASS!! that would have been a nightmare! but Auntie Jessica went back and found the shoe as we retraced our steps in the dark parking area.

We were all glad to be home. I think next year, we'll either go to a party or have one!

Abby stayed with grandma and hubby was at the Notre Dame game with his dad. Other than that the night went well. =o)

I better go.. hugs all- deb

Pumpkin Patch adventures and more...

2009-10-27T14:11:00.000-07:00

Well, i have soo much to say..not sure if i want to include it all today but here it goes:

We were soo excited about a week ago that we can finally go to the pumpkin patch with the girls and take pics..i had been driving by it at least twice a week. lol. Well, we decided to go on a sunday after church and lunch. We did.. it was not fun! it was alot of work trying to get my girls to even sit together! wth?? SOOO not what i was expecting.. Melanie just would not cooperate..she would not look at us trying to take a pic. it was crazy! i was soo frustrated and hot that after only 10 minutes..i was heading back to the van with the family.. i was very disappointed. i did get a few pics that came out ok but nothing that i had hoped. I blame my camera though.. i soo need a new one, one that doesnt take forever to reload to take another pic. -sigh-.. it would be a miracle to get a new one at this point though.
Anyhow, this past sunday, we attempted the pumpkin patch again.. this time with really low expectations. We got some really cute pics of Abby.. Mel not so much..she was in a bad mood because she thought we were going back to sea world to see the Elmo halloween show! (we went the day before, saturday) well.. we ended up with a few good pics and i totally gave up. I am thinking the people who we get to do our family portaits, better be patient, give us plenty of time, and is prepared to deal with melanies refusal to even look at a camera. not fun!
On another note.. my ribbon came in quick! and i was very pleased with the quality. I also lowered the prices on my hairbows.. everyone is just loving the MUM clips i make! they are original and super cute $1.50 a clip or $3 pair! Im hoping i can sell more in the coming months, ive been making about 6-8 during naptime.. so i will be well stocked for the holidays! lmk if i can make some for you or for a gift!!! hairbowsbydeb@att.net or if ur my fb friend u know how to reach me!
on another note..i have a bit of a rant.. As you may know BOTH of my girls nap at the same time. from 2-5 and sometimes its sooner, sometimes later but i am consistant about giving them one. I have ALOT of mom friends who dont do this.. which is all well and good for them, sometimes they make me seem like im a nap nazi. Like i think the world is gonna come to an end if they dont nap. Well, no..i know its not gonna end. But i do know that because my girls have a routine and they know what to expect, they arent crabby, they arent acting crazy, they arent fighting naps, and they feel more secure about whats gonna happen next everyday. i dont know if its because i have a BA in education and know that routines and consistancy are soo important or if its just something i learned from other moms when melanie was younger. Either way, if not having your kids not nap works for you, great! more power to you.=o) I feel its a nice break for both the girls and for me, which is an extra plus for me. We all do things differently and i respect that, please respect my choices too. thank you.
on to the next topic..
Christmas shopping.. yes.. its just around the corner. I am proud to say..im done shopping for the girls. yes! and i had a list made for the rest of the family to choose from, so that the girls will get what they like and not stuff that they dont. saves us time on having to return or exchange stuff. so far the list has worked out great! I just need my dad and stepmom to tell me what they are getting and my inlaws and i think we will be done with it. yay! i still however need to get planning on the family birthday party for abby and see if we can squeeze in the baptism this year or it may have to wait till jan or feb. yep.. its only just begun, the fun that is!
Oh! i forgot to mention abby got her top teeth in and the other night..slept ALL NIGHT!! we didnt have to get up once..it took us by suprise that we both did get up just to see if she was ok! lol. We will be moving her to her own room soon! i cant wait! though im not looking forward to her accidently waking up melanie in the middle of the night as we fumble to her room to see why shes crying.. but i think she's been in our room long enough and we need to just deal with it and jump that hurdle! im sure i'll blog about it when it happens! lol.
another thing.. abby still doesnt eat table foods..which is not suprising to me since she is barely getting her teeth in now..but ive tried looking for those biter biscuit cookies..and for the life of me cant find them anywhere! do they no longer make them? ive only seen these new looking things called rice husks or what i bought was called MUM-MUMs, they look like a surfboard shape foamy ricecake looking thing. well, abby kinda diggs it. she ate half of one and then the next day when i gave her another one, she ate the entire thing! the bad part was..its sticky when wet and abby got it all over her face..lil white crumby peices..lol and melanie saw it and started gagging!!! OMG!! it was crazy.. everytime she looked at her sister she gagged!! and to the point of juice coming up! yep! it was soo weird! but i tried giving one to abby today and she flinged over her shoulder.. lol so i dunno.. i tried giving her those gerber puffs..but she gagged on those and i even broke them up into smaller pieces. i just want her to get the idea of how to bite food. o well. any suggestions would help. i guess ill just keep trying right. lol.
well, naptime is almost over.. i better go. Happy Halloween everyone if i dont blog sooner! Stay Safe!
Hugs Everyone!- deb

Rain rain go AWAY!

2009-10-14T11:28:00.000-07:00

Hi, Everyone.. it's been crazy around here! Last post was on our anniversary..well, three days later, on her 10 mos. day.. Abby started crawling! yahoo! i got it on video and posted it on my fb wall if you havent seen it yet. Well, now she's ALL OVER the place! lol. before then, she was just scooting around on her hiney and twisting and turning her little body everywhere...but no more! Plus, my lil baby is always in "walking mode" she doesnt walk on her own but she will just hold your fingers and there she goes! then she gets upset when you try and sit her for a break! lol. i dont think she quite realizes mommy is a bit old and worn out to just keep walking hunched over!

Over the past month, it has been odd weather.. one week it rained all week, then the next week it was sunny but we stayed home because mel got a runny nose and fever, then a day later..abby got it too.. so then just when we thought we'd finally get out to playgroups again or shopping or the park..... it rains all week. And dont get me wrong, we need the rain..its been soo dry and hot.. but dang..all week??? rain rain go away! is what we kept saying everyday.. -sigh- and of course i have friends who dont mind going everywhere in the rain so they poke fun at me for staying home where its safe and we stay dry.. but seriously..i dont mind a little rain..but when its pouring and flooding..i have no business out and about with my girls. they are way more important that a quick trip to the store. and especially now that a lot of kids are getting so sick with pink eye, fevers, flu, ear infections, colds and everything else... no thanks! i'll pass. =o)

Home starts sounding pretty darn fabulous! On the plus side though..i was able to get laundry done and dishes.. lol. so i had less to do on the weekend.

Yesterday and the day before i pumped out a bunch of hairbows during naptime..i was very happy about that..it gives me quiet time while making pretty things. I also bought a bunch of ribbon online for the first time..im hoping i like the quality..i just cant find the colors i need at the craft stores around here..its soo frustrating! so im crossing fingers that i like it when it comes in. =o)

And can you believe i have no family drama to share? lol.. at least i havent been "included" in any of it lately if there is any..which is soo fine with me! yay!

On a good note on my training... My bff Jessie and I had another good run/walk on saturday. We did the exact same route as the week prior which was about 2 miles but we did it in less time and we werent struggling as much towards the end. It was a great feeling. We still havent thought of a team name!! help us please! ;o)

And is it me or is this year freaking flying by quick??? its almost halloween and i already need to start shopping for Christmas toys! I've learned my lesson from last years experience.. when we finally saved enough money to buy a few gifts for melanie(abby wasnt born yet) there were NO toys on the freaking shelves at EVERY store we went to.. I was sooo upset! so, this year im buying all their gifts before thanksgiving.. way before! so it will be done and over with and i wont be sad that i cant find stuff. and can you believe i still have yet to plan Abby's baptism and birthday before the end of the year?? i have no time!! craziness i tell you! lol.. a moms life..its always busy busy busy.. and if its not one thing its another right? lol.

Here's to all us busy moms who try to keep their kids happy, healthy and DRY!! ;o) CHEERS and BIG pats on the back!

Hugs Everyone-deb

Five Years and counting..

2009-10-02T12:37:00.000-07:00

Today is Oct.2 2009. It is our 5yr Anniversary! We met in August of '94...I remember it like it was yesterday..

That was the year i graduated from high school.. so i was out trying to get a job near my house. I needed something to occupy my time since i was totally not dating... ever again is what i thought! I had the worst ex-boyfriend ever...that loser! Anyhow..with that in mind i told myself that i wouldnt date anyone at work..because i always heard how bad that could be.. I had several interviews but apparently i wasnt waitress material.. lol. which was fine cause that dump closed down not too long after. I got hired at Solo Serve.. remember that store?? it was awesome! lol.. anyhow. i had Orientation and happened to meet my new best friend Rosie that was having orientation too. she no longer lives here . =o( anyhow.. as we were being introduced to all the employees on the sales floor, I saw the "man of my dreams" waving hello to me. Yes.. it was from then on i believed in love at first sight.. for i couldnt stop thinking about him.. I was really sad that when i did finally started working..i never saw him. after a few weeks..He finally worked on a night i did.. and i was just tickled with butterflies all over! He made me nervous and i knew this was more than a crush for me..because i was actually trying to figure out a way to get his attention. (this was very very very unlike me). It was good to hear from everyone else that they thought he was such a nice sweet guy...that was a relief..all i needed was to to be in love with a jerk.. lol. thank you Lord for bringing this wonderful sweet man into my life.
I remember being playful and flirty with him and i remember when he asked me out on a date for the first time.. it was heaven! We went to the movies and we saw "The Lion King". lol there was nothing else we cared to watch there but it was great and it always brings back memories when we watch that movie.
I used to bake him cupcakes and cookies and suprise him on his lunch breaks. (he was a senior in high school and always ate close by) I was soo in love.
He helped me move out of my mom's house..which totally changed my life for the better! And he would write me notes and leave them on my car door and a rose under my front tire, so when i got out of work...i had a nice sweet suprise =o) I never thought i would ever feel loved in this way. It was the best feeling ever!
And still today.. 15 yrs later and married 5 yrs ago. He is the Best Man in the Entire World! He may not bring me roses or write me notes anymore.. but he helps around the house with no complaint and i dont even have to ask.. He helps with the girls whenever he can. He makes sure that we are well provided for and He will stay up with the baby so i can sleep even though he has to get up super early in the morning. He is truly Amazing. He really truly does sooo much for me and our little family. He still gives me butterflies too. I love him more now than i have ever before and my love continues to grow with each passing year.

This blog is for you my love, Christopher Ramos, my best friend, my soul mate, the love of my life. I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH! OXOXOX TO MANY MORE YEARS OF MARRIAGE!
Love, your wife, Deborah Ramos.

My poor babies..

2009-09-27T20:15:00.000-07:00

Well.. Last week it rained almost everyday.. so we didnt get to go anywhere..just wasnt worth it to get out and "get sick" or get in an accident because of stupid people driving crazy in the rain.

Anyhow.. on thurs morning.. Melanie wakes up like at 2am screaming! so daddy went to console her and she went back to sleep after awhile. well, that morning she wakes up with a slight temp. and a big time runny nose! where she got the sickies is beyond me.. we were home all week.. anyhow..i gave her some meds and lil nosies nasal spray and she was good ...we had a Dora tv show marathon..because she didnt want to do anything else.. right now Dora is her FAVORITE thing. well.. i put her down for nap at regular time.. and 1 hr went by..she was still awake.... 2 hrs.. still awake 3 hrs.. awake.. and at hr 4 she FINALLY took a snooze.. it was maybe for an hour because i had to get her up so she could be tired for bed later. anyhow she slept well that night.. Friday came around and she seemed better..not so runny nose.. but when it was time for nap..she never fell asleep! she was in her bed for 3 hrs.. talking, singing, counting, playing, looking at her book.. it was very weird. well.. then saturday..same thing no nap.. did the same thing in bed for 3 hrs.. so.. i knew she wasnt feeling good..poor thing.. she seems a lot better today, sunday but now Abby is sick.. yes.. my baby girl has her first sickies.. and its not fun.. on top of her teething like crazy..she's crabby and pissy about not being able to breathe normal. and gets upset when we wipe her lil face of snot. =o( and worst of all.. she gets soooo upset when we try and give her meds or nasal drops! geez! i mean UPSET! so much so that it got melanie all upset and made her cry just hearing abby cry.. crazy! so.. Here I am up.. waiting to see if Abby will actually sleep tonight.. btw.. she didnt really sleep last night. poor thing! this was before we knew she was "sick". and well.. she didnt nap today much either. so we'll see what happens. could be worse right? a lil sleep deprivation wont hurt well.. maybe a lil. since im suppose to go to the Metallica concert tomorrow night. hmm. o well. it will be dark and if i have circles..ill just blend with everyone else there! HA! "AND NOTHING ELSE MATTERS!!" lol.. love it! it's gonna be awesome!

On a good note.. I did my second run/walk today.. we didnt get to do it yesterday because it was my friends' son's birthday party..so since we were both there.. no running. lol. but we did it today! And boy..was it a workout! We run/walked approx. 2 miles today.. those last few runs were rough! but we pulled through and did it! yay for us! it was a good outing! =o)

Although when i got home, Melanie was acting crazy! lol.. she was running back and forth and saying things out of the blue..it was weird.. i think she had the jitters from not napping all day.. she was seriously delirious! i had to get her to eat something because apparently she didnt eat well with daddy when i left.. i finally got her to sit down and eat yogurt. It was still early by our standards so i figured we should get the baths on and put them to bed asap. did that..and mel went down in a blink for bed. Abby on the other hand.. not so much. She kept sneezing and rubbing all her snot everywhere! it was not good..poor thing had very watery eyes and was just soo frustratingly tired..since she didnt nap well either. Well, i volunteered to stay up with abby all night if i had to. (we put on the humidifier for abby in the room but it got soo stinking hot!) so. Abby seemed to get crabbier with me..wanted to jump out of my arms.. i wanna say it was about 2-3 hrs later i just broke down crying.. not because i wasnt sleeping and was tired.. but because nothing i was doing was helping her. it was very frustrating..here i am trying to allow my hubby to sleep while i "take care" of abby..and i couldnt even do that.. she cried almost the entire time. Well, hubby got up and it just broke my heart that she wanted daddy.. for when he held her she stopped crying immediately and laid her head on him!! WTH?? daddys girl i guess. So as im sitting there sulking in defeat... i asked if there was anything i could do..hubby told me if there was anything else we can do to help her... the only thing that was bothering me more was that damn humidifier!! it was hot! so i went to get the cool mist vaporizor.. AAHH!! HEAVEN! so i thought.. i couldnt get the damn knob to open to put the water in it!! i tried for a good 1/2 hr. and then finally as i sat there with tears.. my hand still on the knob.. the damn thing pops open!!! i was like WTF??? i was soo grateful too! so i set it up and hubby told me to go take a shower.. so i did. and he told me to go to bed.. so i did.. i was the back up for tonight incase abby woke up.. and well.. after all that craziness. would you know abby slept the rest of the night!! omg.. well.. she's still asleep.. its now 9:20am on monday and shes asleep. so..im hoping she feels better today.. she sure sounds better in her bed..not gasping like last night. gonna go wake mel too.. lets just say im not looking forward to naptime.. with abby anyway. poor thing..
well.. this was an eventful day. and my monday is just beginning..
looking forward to Metallica tonight! whoo hoo!
hugs- everyone..till next time! :o)

Half Marathon or BUST!!!

2009-09-20T14:29:00.000-07:00

Well everyone.. I am soo happy to announce that my friend Jessie and I completed our first training session of run/walk, I want to say it was 1 mile. We did this on Saturday evening..which will be our permanent day to run/walk. yay! We will eventually get another evening set in place as well but we need to figure out our schedules again now that she is starting her new job as a yoga instructor at the YMCA near 281. Congrats Jessie!! and my mother in law is starting a new job as well this week and will need to figure out what evenings she can watch the girls. Plus work around my gym nights and bunco/gno's. lol.. wow! ive all of a sudden have a busy schedule!

And I just want to say this about this Journey I am committing to:

As a female that has not seen a size 12 in more than 20 yrs.. I am doing this for me.. not in the hopes of ever being a size 6 or even a 10.. because i know i am just not built for that size. But more in the hopes of accomplishing something bigger than me. Doing something that i know will allow me to be a better mommy and wife in the long haul. To allow myself to become that beautiful confident woman i know i am deep down that no one can physically see. I have a goal. When you become a mom.. you somehow loose part of yourself.. not in a bad way.. Being a mom makes it difficult to be "You" before children. Its a whole different ballgame that you play once you start that journey into motherhood. I find it difficult to have "me" time generally. So for me.. this Journey is what Ive needed to bounce back and allow me to become the "me" I lost along the way.
For those of you that do not know me well enough.. I am a trooper.. I can succeed in anything I put my mind and heart to. I can be a leader and a follower. I can motivate and withstand most anything thrown at me. I give things my all and put my best foot forward. I can make things look easy when in fact im learning as i go. I am the best friend you ever thought you could have if you allow me to. I am not a quiter. I will believe in you, if you believe in me. Together and/or seperate I can accomplish my goal. I am many more things.. but most of all a Mom and Wife. I will do this for me... and for my family as well, for they will benefit from the "me" that was lost. Ive missed that person dearly.
So here is to the Journey ahead!! Half Marathon next yr or BUST! I am gonna do it BABY!!YEAH!
Jessie.. buddy.. You are gonna do it too!!!! WHOO HOO!!! Thanks for allowing me to be your running buddy! I appreciate it! (we need to think of a team name for us! ) GO TEAM ______!!!!!

I will be tracking our progress here with updates so you can help cheer us on our journey!! WHOO HOO!! I am still soo super excited about it! =o)

p.s. Abby got her first set of teeth in!!! yay big girl!! I also finally broke down and had to go to stride rite to buy abby some shoes for the first time... She has a high arch and is a wide!! argh! so needless to say i can forget about her ever wearing melanies old stride rites! and of course it came out of my pocket!! friggin $45!!! AHH!! o well.. it will be worth it since she is soo insistant on walking all over the place! lol. forget crawling! =o)
hugs- deb

Why wont she just SLEEP???

2009-09-02T13:07:00.000-07:00

Ok. so lately Melanie was doing well at night after that last incident where i was up at friggin 4 and 5 am with her trying to get her back to bed... Well now..its like everytime we put her to bed.. she has a freakout! starts whining and crying histerically!! ~sigh~ its very heartbreaking at times cause you dont want them crying.. but damn it..im so sick of it. She tends to do this just so we can go back in and laydown next to her and hold her hand.. which ..hey! if this is all i had to do to get her to go to bed peacefully..i would GLADLY! but.. she doesnt.. she begs for another story just to get out of her bed.. then its the potty.(which she refuses..so i know shes trying to trick).. then its more water.. and when you know she's playing you for a sucker...it just drives you crazy! and you cant just leave because she will cry louder and harder.. and you end up coming back. so.. as much as i hate it.. i try to let her cry it out.. hoping that she will "get" that we're on to her and its not gonna work anymore. and for the most part..it works.. last night however..it didnt.. mainly because while i was in the shower..daddy decided to GO IN THERE! and gave her a hug..etc. etc. and then heard abby up so HE LEFT melanie.. i was a bit furious when i found this out.. because i thought for sure by the time i was done with my shower melanie would have finally fallen asleep.. NOPE! ~sigh~ so.. guess what..i had to go to her room.. have her sit with me.. we sang, hugged.. got water.. and put her back in bed.. as i sat on the floor next to her bed.. i was not a happy mommy.. for by the time she finally fell asleep..it was around 1:00am! thankfully both girls slept until almost 10am!!! i was soo tired! i just want to know why she wont SLEEP!!
Thankfully naptime is a piece of cake.. for now anyway.

and speaking of naps.. sunday after mels nap.. we noticed that she had a small bruise on her cheek! we were like WTH?? we asked her if it hurt.. and she just smiled..she had no clue. lol
I was suppose to take her to HEB with me to get a few things but i was like.. noway! I dont want people thinking i beat my child and call CPS! It looked that noticeable... and actually it hasnt gotten any better.. you can still see it.. =o( but i think it was those damn baby dolls that were in her bed.. i took them out last night.. i think maybe one popped her real good while she was playing in her bed. they have the hard plastic heads..and the bigger one's head is very heavy.
i think im gonna hide those dolls for awhile..i just dont want them in her bed anymore.

well.. i guess thats it for now.. i'll update again soon!
hugs- deb

Everything and Anything

2009-09-01T12:51:00.000-07:00

Well, hello all. =o)

Its been awhile since my last post.. I did get my hair cut shorter.. wasnt exactly what i pictured it would look like but it still looks good, courtesy of my mom as a birthday gift. My mom however, tends to be highly smothering with melanie.. or more like forceful.. umm.. for example..she tries to tell her stuff and melanie doesnt respond..so she keeps on and like, i dont want to say grabs her cause that sounds harshful..but she somewhat grabs her and forces her to look in her direction.. does that make sense? but she talks to mel like she's an idiot. She says.. " wanna go bye bye??? and to melanie.. she just has no clue what the hell she's telling her.. lol. bye bye means nothing to mel.. so she ignores her. or she will tell her "you wanna see elmo?" and of course this gets mels attention..but melanie also gets upset because then she never sees elmo...my mom just says it to get her attention!! i tell her ALL THE TIME mom, dont say that because she thinks you really are gonna show her it and she expects it and when you dont deliver it..she WILL get upset!! does she listen?? nope! i guess she's use to bribing my niece like this..doesnt work with mel..it makes her uneasy.. anyhow.. while i was getting my hair cut. my mom was watching the girls in the waiting room of the JCP salon.. i could hear both girls screaming! sigh.. when i was done.. melanie wanted to jump out of her seat of the stroller.. and apparently my mom did it again.. smothered her with this "crap talk". So.. the rest of the time mel wouldnt let go of me..i had to hold her while we were looking around the store. it was just crazy.. and as much as my mom said..get whatever you need ill buy it for your birthday..i was soo overwhelmed with melanie acting soo clingy that i couldnt look, concentrate, or breathe that i just told my mom .. no..i cant.. not like this.. lets just go! frustrated because i desperately could have used a few things...i just couldnt.. sigh.. i took mel to the play area for awhile and i just chatted with my mom.. afterwards she wanted to take us to lunch..i was tempted to pass on it since mel was acting crazy after being with my mom for an hr. but i was hungry and it was a birthday lunch. she took us to cheddars on 410.. which i had never even heard of. it was ok.. it was very busy though.. but i think it was because it was the first day of the no tax weekend..everyone was out and about. i was soo thankful to get home.. and she wonders why we dont go over to her house very often... hmm.. i wonder?? not!

On another note.. you know how lately i have had some bad experiences at stores..well. i had another bad one.. on wed..i went to James Avery to get my birthday charm bracelet and charms soldered..and i had some questions too.. well. i was the only one there first of all.. and all the employees seemed to think i was invisible.. when i finally got serviced.. the lady was not friendly at all.. she made it seem like i was bothering her.. anyhow..i continued to tell her that i saw a diff charm i liked better and i wanted to see it..maybe for an exchange.. so she showed it to me..there i was.. the indecisive person that i am.. asked her what she thinks.. as to just get an opinion..well. she was no help. she just looked at me like "great.. youre one of those" im like wtf? so i went ahead and exchanged them..i had two.. they were duplicates.. 2 girls.. to symbolize abby and mel. anyhow.. then she asks me where on the bracelet do i want them.. and seriously..i was very upset by this time.. not only because of the bad service but because mel started to scream and cry! so..im like.. i dont care where you put them..they are the only two charms..does this really matter? so i tell her anywhere..just as long as they are on the bracelet. (for real people!!) so..i still had questions i wanted to ask.. but then she was like well.ok were done.. thanks. as to shu me off.. so.. i did.. mel was soo upset that i just left.. and once we got out of that store.. mel was fine!!! WTF?? i think she too sensed that i was not happy about the visit.
so i went home to look up my questions online.. but i didnt quite get all the answers.. i also made a complaint while i was at it to the customer service e-mail.. a day later i got a reply apologizing about the way i was treated and that i should be recieving a call from the store manager soon.. and on friday.. the manager did call.. the funny thing is i was just at the store that day to pick up my bracelet and the lady that helped me was AWESOME! little did she know i was one of the ones that made a complaint from the last visit..and she answered all my questions and was so wonderful! i was happy with her. i didnt get a chance to call the manager back because he called during naptime.. but i did have to go back to the store yesterday (monday)to pick up the jewelry i had left there to get cleaned and polished.. and i spoke with the manager. He was very nice and apologetic and assured me that he already had a conversation with the employee whom i had the bad service from.. I also made sure i told him that my visit on friday i had a wonderful experience with! and she was there! lol.. she got all excited that i remembered her name and that i complimented her to the manager in person. =o) She even told me that i could ask for any of them if i ever needed anything.. of course the manager asked me if there was something he could do to make things better..but i told him no..i just wanted to be sure he knew about the bad service. it was very unlike a JA store. I thanked them picked up my things and left with a smile. see..i dont just complain about bad service..i give kudos to those who give fantastic service too! I used to work retail and work as a store manager..so i know how it all works! And the Lady with the awesome service at JA at Ingram..her name is DAWN..just an FYI if any of you go.. i recommend her help! =o)
anyhow.. i know this got long.. i better stop before i write a book. =o)
thanks for following! more to come! =o)
hugs- deb

Its "Official" !

2009-08-20T12:28:00.000-07:00

Hey there! Well. Its "Official"! Its my REAL birthday! lol..

And i must say..its been a good one so far! lol the day is not over yet.. Thank you to everyone who remembered and sent me birthday wishes today! =o)

I am officially 34 today and proud of it! I dont FEEL my age.. though sometimes i do FEEL like a grandma cause everything hurts! lol. but i think that is more because im not exactly physically fit..ok.. so not even close to it but im not and will never be a victoria's secret model so who cares right?! lol I do however WANT to be healthy and slim down a bit more..i dont care if im ever a size 10 again but i just want to be able to not have a belly and not have to wear stretchy jeans/pants!! which by the way..is all that they sell now a days!!!! i looked for regular NICE jeans and they were all stretchy!! WTF? so i didnt even bother to try any on..

I do go to the gym regularly but honestly its really not enough to see any major changes in my size.. although i have lost quite a bit since we started going. =o) I would like to do more.. A friend of mine has brought up that she would make me do a marathon with her.. and seriously..it would be a great accomplishment not just doing the marathon but i know just the training alone could help me get where i want to be physically.. so..im up for the challenge im just not sure how serious my friend is about it.. and how we would actually be able to get out to run on both our schedules w/two kids and hubbys that like to do their own thing. She mentioned doing stroller jogs which is cool! but i dont have a double jog stroller and cant afford to get one. =o( ive been looking on CL to price how much they are going for but they are still a bit pricey..i'll have to keep looking. i just dont want to get one and our plans dont end up working out. ya know. i need a commitment. =o) I think we just need to talk about it more and set something up that will work for us. anyhow.. today is going well. thanks everyone! i dont have plans tonight since we celebrated last month at PF CHANGS.. yum! i think we are just doing the normal routine and heading to the gym. =o) Again.. thanks everyone for the birthday wishes!! I feel very blessed to have such great friends like you!! thank you!!

On another note: today on FB i came across a post from a friend.. And well.. the topic has been bothering me.. not just a little.. a LOT! so i need to just vent here..
It bothers me because lately it has been said alot by others and im sure they dont "mean" to be ugly but seriously.. it is.. and maybe ugly is not the word.. more like "offensive". When i hear it..i get offended by it.
When people think of near "Ingram mall" they automatically say "Ghetto" WTF?????? Seriously now.. Do these people really know what ghetto is? because near ingram mall "where I LIVE btw..may not be the POSH side of san antonio.. but it is not even close to being "Ghetto"!!
Its not even considered the "west side"! its the Northwest!! you want to see west side follow culebra south..down to the other end of loop410.. then youll be on the WEST SIDE! you want more ghetto.. go further south or east! go drive down towards the at& t center!! that's WAY more ghetto! Where i live is FAR from it.. and damn it..i grew up on the west side! SO unless you've lived it.. you dont know what you are talking about!! i have also lived on the Northside/Converse/universal city areas.. and seriously..its not any nicer than where i am.
I, however, can agree that Ingram mall is not the BEST mall in town.. but its not the worst and its five minutes away!!! You know compared to most of my friends homes that have soo kindly invited us over to play and such.. my home is VERY small and VERY old.. but like a friend reminded me before that Newer doesnt mean Better.. and she was right because you will always wish your home has this or that no matter where you live and I am fine with my little house. Its a perfect size for my little family right now and our mortgage payments are significantly lower than most people around here. So im not living the "high life" but im not living in the ghetto! lol although not having TV seriously is sucking for me right now! lol. ok.. im over it.. i just dont want to hear it anymore!! my side of town is not ghetto!!! I'll drive you where it is ghetto if you want to see the difference!! lol =o) Im saying this with love everyone! lol

anyhow.. as i was typing this out i want to mention my BFF Jessie did a "drive-by" lol!!! seriously.. she stopped and dropped a lil something for me at my door and left. lol.. Well. I want everyone to know that i am truly blessed to have such a wonderful friend. Jessie went out of her way to give me a Star bucks giftcard for my birthday!! thanks buddy!! U R The Best Friend a girl could have!! And she wrote me a sweet note that is 100times better than any bought card! It really made my day complete and brought a smile to my face. almost a tear in my eye too! aww.. thanks buddy! you are too kind!!
just wanted to share that with everyone! btw..im cutting my hair shorter tomorrow!!!! im getting a victoria beckham bob!! whoo hoo!!! wish me luck! it'll grow back quick anyway! lol.. bye everyone!! thanks again for the birthday wishes!! thanks for letting me rant! lol hugs to everyone! =o) <3 Deb

Sleep? People do this?

2009-08-12T21:04:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone.. its been a few days, so i thought id post a new blog of all the things going on in my world.. lol.. Lets begin with sleep shall we?

Sleep.. ~sigh~ People actually do this.. other people.. apparently im not part of that group. =o( At least lately that is how i feel. But as i FB daily i see that i'm not the only one part of the get no sleep moms group. The sad thing is..its not the baby keeping me up.. its my 2yr old.. For some strange reason this past few weeks Melanie has woken up crying and screaming... before it use to not be a problem because she would just cry a few minutes and then just fall back to sleep.. well.. it hasnt been that way lately her crying just gets louder and louder.. so now..we make a decision.. should i go see if something is really wrong and if there is fix it or if its nothing..end up laying on the hard floor next to her bed till she falls asleep 3 hrs later?? hmmm.. yeah.. but you know.. its hard not to go and see whats wrong..it breaks your heart hearing them screaming and wondering if tears are falling.. so like a good loving mom (or a sucker lol) i get up to see whats wrong and she immediately stops crying and starts saying and pointing out everything in her room.. lol.. hairbows, butterflies, fan, books, mickey mouse, etc..etc.. sigh.. as she holds her hands up to me, as if she wants me to just hold her... so like a sucker i take her out and i check if shes wet..etc.. then we sit and end up reading a book.. yeah.. like i can see at 4am! so i comfort her for awhile.. calm her down and then try my best to get her back in bed.. as i lay on the floor beside her bed she wants me to stick my hand in there.. she likes to know im right there.. this takes forever..and for some reason i cant quite fall asleep... oh wait! its because im laying on the friggin hard floor... sigh.. the things you do to comfort your child and so you can make it back to your own soft comfy bed. I dunno whats bothering her though... some nights she sleeps great others.. not so great and the cycle of being good loving mom/sucker begins again. lol Abby on the other hand.. sleeps like a champ.. lately has been waking at 6 or 7am for a bottle but by 7 or 8 she is out again! so i get to go back to bed depending on if melanie is still asleep. its soo tiring.. but a moms job is 24/7.

thanks for following with me! =o) i enjoy all your comments! keep em coming! hugs- deb

Things I haven't exposed my girls to.....

2009-08-02T20:14:00.001-07:00

Ok.. so here it is.. things i havent exposed my girls to....
As i was saying..it sometimes bothers me when for example: A mommy friend asks if its ok to give Melanie (lets just say) a lollipop...and not that i mind the fact thats its a lollipop..its more that i've never given her one and therefore i dont know what she will do with it.. So my feeling is that maybe im not exposing her to enough things or that we are being too over protective about things. Either way..i feel like im jipping her at the age of 2. Am i the only mom that has never given their two yr old a lollipop? or a rice krispy treat? or those fruit gummy snacks from gerber? the list can go on and on..
Also..We just got her a tricycle for her birthday in june and auntie jessica put it together for us about a week ago.. and it seems like everyone elses kid whose younger knows how to ride one.. hmm...
At sea world, we have never taken her to the water park area or the happy harbor water area....
ive never given her orange juice or any other kind of drink..besides water and a few fruit juices..

I guess the queston on my mind here is "Is she missing out?" "Are we too over protective?"
We dont allow her to walk when we get out of the van when we go places...at least not until we get inside of where ever we are going or she gets in the stroller.

Obviously there is more that we havent exposed her to yet but i feel part of our "not exposing" has a lot to do with my husbands job. He's a prosecutor for the DA's office and deals with domestic violence and child abuse/baby deaths etc.. and He has told me that alot of the cases where the child passes.. could have been prevented if the child would not have been "exposed" to things for example: balloons.. babys putting it in their mouths (or acting like they are blowing them up) and instead of blowing they accidently suck the balloon in.. and well.. i think you get the picture. anyhow.. and of course no parent supervision/neglect of person in charge is to blame as well.
So.. we pick and choose what is "safe" and what needs more supervision. And we just never know with Melanie.. one day she decides to eat her daddy's poor boy another day she decides she doesnt want her chicken nuggets... She wont eat real veggies that we make but she will eat the veggies that gerber makes! its hit or miss...
Yesterday, Auntie jessica and hubby put together melanie and abby's new play kitchen.. Its something melanie has kinda played with at other venues..but hasnt gotten the full picture of what pretend play is all about. Since we made the play room, melanie has been able to do soo much more with her toys and learn at the same time... The kitchen is a great added learning tool and today..as i carefully added all the stickers and decals to the kitchen...melanie just had a great time with the pots and pans and foods. =o) She was even using the play phone it comes with and was having an entire conversation! it was too cute!

Anyhow..as i was saying.. if at one point you ask me something or ask if melanie can have something etc.. and i have a terrified or unsure look on my face.. its because we havent done it yet. lol. dont be alarmed in any way but please dont think that i have my girls in a "bubble" either... with two kiddos and me only having one set of eyes..its hard to keep a good watch on them.... and i do see other kids her age and younger doing much more but i know its not because she cant do it too..but i think also some of those kids are the only child..so i think its a bit easier to expose them to lots more than with two. Things such as painting..or playdoh.. we just havent gotten around to doing it yet. it takes time, prepping and then cleanup.. maybe once abby is a little more independent we can explore much more. Ive tried doing crafts with melanie but she's not interested yet.. so im waiting...
im still waiting for the day we can make cookies or something together... sigh...
Well.. there you have it.. just wondered if i am the only mommy that feels this way?

BTW: i think lil miss Abby is gonna walk before she crawls! =o) she will be 8mos Aug 5th.

Thanks everyone! =o) hugs- deb

Whiney and Clingy= hectic morning

2009-08-01T15:00:00.000-07:00

Ok.. well.i havent been blogging lately because i havent had any weird days that would be interesting to write about.. but today is a different story.

Where to begin..

Today is saturday and I was going to take Melanie to a birthday party that we were invited to. Even though we both woke up a little cranky..i figured it would be safe to go..thinking by the time we get there we should both be "over it". Boy was I WRONG! She was soo clingy today. And seriously..i dont mind this except she tends to get this way when i am in the middle of trying to "DO" something.. like make dinner or wash dishes or have mommy time..and she wont go with her daddy...its irritating. But i get over it and i try my best to satisfy her need...taking deep breaths..trying to smile but i do it..

Anyhow.. We get to the party and she is fine.. she wants to play with the balloons.. all is good. We go outside to spend time with friends and she can go play with the toys out there and her friends.. nope.. she wants to act all whining and clingy.. it got better as we went inside for a snack...strawberries and watermelon her favorites! shes good.. then we go back outside with a balloon.. drama people. is all i have to say.. during pinata.. we had to play alone on the swing while the rest of the kids and parents had fun.. she didnt even want to watch. she liked that no one was playing but her there. lol. anyhow.. she was ok for a bit.. but then it was time for cake. yes! well.. we made it inside and as we were waiting to sing to the birthday girl.. Melanie decides to have a breakdown.. full blown freak out.. WTH?? she was soo excited about CAKE!! and then this??? ugh! i was soo embarrassed..i had to take her out back and sit her for time out. I dont think they would have appreciated a screaming child while they were trying to sing happy birthday and video tape it.. so. as i sat outside waiting for melanie to finish her fit.. I decided i had enough. Here i thought i would be able to enjoy some time out with my friends while she has fun with hers....Abby stayed at home with daddy BTW.. and this is what happens.

Once i got her a bit calm.. we left.. saying some quick goodbyes while everyone else was having a great time and enjoying cake.. we were offered to take some home but seriously.. Melanie did not deserve cake after that nonsense. Once we got outside and headed toward the van..i just started to tear up.. It was hard for me to do this because i really didnt want to leave but i knew it would be for the best that we did.. As we drove off, Melanie was still crying and i think even more because she knew i was not happy about it. After i got myself back together.. she was better too.. its weird how she can sense my emotions and feel what im feeling sometimes..And it helps me remind myself that i need to get over it and move on so she will know that even though things like this take a toll on mommy.. that it will be ok. and i still love her.

Once we got home though.. she became my sweet girl again.. i dunno.. it was just a trying morning.. But i was grateful for the invite to the party. I missed my friends.

I also want to blog about something.. things i havent exposed my girls to.. because sometimes it bothers me that i tell people "she doesnt know or we've never" etc .etc..

but my lil one is up and i dont have time at the moment.. so.. it will be my next blog!

stay tuned!

hugs- deb

Updates

2009-07-27T20:39:00.000-07:00

So.. its been a few days since i last blogged..i have been either too tired and napped during naptime or busy making hairbows. =o)

In my last blog i mentioned that we were going to CEC with my mom.. That actually went well. Melanie and Abby had a great time! I of course enjoyed that i had pizza!

And my girls are wearing hairbows i made! =o)

On friday.. Auntie Jessica was able to assemble Melanie's tricycle that we got her for her birthday..So..she absolutely loves it!! and she likes the helmet too..i was actually afraid that she wouldnt wear it but she did! my lil one is getting soo big! =o) Thanks Jessica for doing that for us!

Friday night we celebrated my Unbirthday at PF Changs.. i was really excited to go since we havent had chinese in soo long and we havent been to a nice restaurant alone in a while. But i think that might have put a lil damper on our visit.. we forgot that they do call ahead seating! so everyone that came after us for 1hr and 1/2 sat before us! URGH! it was sooo frustrating because i was super starving and i felt pretty dumb watching everyone eat and leave and we were still sitting there.. Generally we would have left but we had waited for soo long already and we were both looking forward to it that we just stayed and waited and tried to make the best of it. it worked out.. We ATE EVERYTHING we ordered! thats how hungry we were..lol. chicken lettuce wraps, mongolian beef and some chicken..i forgot which one but they were both oh soo good!! I was hoping to be able to look around at some stores on the way out but since it took soo long all the stores were closed when we left.

Saturday we ended up taking Abby to see the Dr. I had noticed on monday after her bath some rash like rings on the bottoms of both legs (where she would sit)and at first i didnt really worry about it too much..i lotioned them as usual since it didnt seem to be bothering her. But as the week went by they didnt look any better and on friday i noticed they were really red. so i got worried, especially since it was weird that they were in circle shapes. like a ring. so i automatically thought ringworm!! which i looked up and found that its a contagious fungi! so. i got very worried on the way home friday night after picking the girls up from grandmas.. I told hubby that we need to see the Dr. in the morning..i didnt want to not know what she has and if its contagious.. we needed to get it undercontrol. i also needed peace of mind that Abby WAS ok. I cant assume..that to me is being neglectful. And i cried a little because i started to have bad thoughts about it being worse than it was and how i would not forgive myself if something bad happened to Abby or Melanie because i assumed it was minor! So we rearranged the morning plans and went straight to the Dr's office w/no appointment. Even though they were booked they saw us anyway.. we did wait awhile but it was sooo worth it.. The Dr. didnt think it was ringworm only because since i noticed it monday..it would have gotten worse than it was and no one else had gotten anything on them either(ringworm:very contagious) He said it looks more like a type of Eczema.. That she probably had an allergic reation to something. ~Relief~ thank goodness!! He gave us some lotions and steriod cream..and he said if it doesnt get better to call or come in. so far its looking better..still has ring shapes and its dry and rough but it doesnt seem to be bothering her. I can now feel like a responsible mom again yay! =o)

Today, Monday, during naptime i made some new style and ribbon hairbows..lol.(check them out if you havent already) i was dreaming of them last night because i was on the computer trying to get more ideas of how i wanted to make these new bows. I also got some great suggestions from a few friends! thanks!! So..there is more to come..i just need more ribbon..i keep running out! But i only have so much money i can use for it.. budgeting is hard work.

I am also currently in the market for a new diaper bag..I want to get one that looks more like a chic purse..but with all the perks of a diaper bag..i have seen a few online but im more of a "see it in person" type of shopper. so i need to actually visit a few stores and shop around and price. They get expensive! I need a new one super bad. =o)

Thanks everyone.. till next time! hugs- deb

A mom's life

2009-07-22T12:26:00.000-07:00

I didnt post yesterday due to some setbacks. LOL.. a.k.a "A mom's life". Something happens and guess what..mommy has to deal with it, fix it, make it better etc.etc.. lol.

Yesterday during naptime or what i call "mommy time" i was fiddling with FB and after an hr and 1/2 right before i could blog.. I hear screaming and crying!! WTH? I check the video monitor (a heaven sent device soo worth the money!) and Melanie is up and yelling w/tears.. Luckily Abby was asleep. So..needless to say i spent the rest of naptime with my lil pumpkin.
I introduced her to " A Bugs Life" because i was tired of watching: NEMO, SHREK, LAdy &the Tramp, and Cinderella!! But of course..with no suprise..I watched "bugs life" over and over. of course we didnt watch it most of the time but it was playing in the background. This is her NEW thing.. lol.. I have other movies that i plan to whip out once i get tired of those! lol.
Even though we played..i think she was still super tired because the rest of the evening was the dreaded shreeking whining!! AHH!!! I was soo fed up with crying and whining by the time hubby was home. I know she doesnt mean to get on my nerves but man! a mom can only listen to it for so long. lol oh! and i was kinda happy that my mom called in the middle of it all! lol. yep! she's the one that says kids will sleep anywhere..well. she heard melanie and was like " whats wrong with her?" lol. i laughed..i told her she didnt get enough nap time. and this is what happens when she doesnt sleep well during nap. my mom was like "OH" ok.. TTYL! ha ha!
Yesterday after everyone was asleep..i went to the kitchen to make hairbows..i needed a stress relieving project to keep my mind from the crazy day. They turned out soo cute!!

So, this morning i decided to try and sell some bows that i have made.. $5 is all im asking right now!! You should check them out!! i also found some new color ribbon today..so i'll be using those in the next week or so.. keep checking back!

i took pictures yesterday of mel and abby just playing and having fun in the playroom..it was fun ..by this time mel got over her whining for awhile. =o)

Today on the otherhand.. we werent sure what we were gonna do.. mom had to make an executive decision.. lol.. so we went to see the firehouse with one of our PG's.
It was great! Mel loved it and I made sure they were both wearing a hair bow that i made!!!
we didnt stay for the whole thing though..went to Micheals instead.. which i must mention.. really sucks in the ribbon dept. I have been to others and they generally have a huge selection of ribbon.. not this one.. Im gonna try the one off 410/ingram..if that one sucks too..ill go to the rim!
I added some pics of Abby and Melanie wearing my bows to the Bows photo album.. Tell your friends!!! =o)

So now..it is naptime.. and well. Abby is up..so im up too.. wouldve like to take a nap today since ive been up since 6am. But a mom's work is never done. especially with more than one kiddo. sigh...

and tomorrow.. we are suppose to go to CEC (chuck e cheese) with my mom.. wish us luck! she has no patience with melanie.
until next time!! hugs- deb

Happy UnBirthday!!!

2009-07-20T14:00:00.000-07:00

You are probably wondering what the heck i'm talking about.. "Happy UN birthday?" Well, today is my official Un-Birthday..( btw thanks Jessie for remembering!) lol. My actual birthday is August 20th, my husband and I decided to make this day my "official" birthday a few years ago. After he FINALLY came to the realization that my "actual" birthday just sucks for me. He could never understand why i never cared for my birthday..it was just another day for me..at least this is how i wanted my yearly day to go.
As a kid my parents did the whole birthday party thing, pinata, cake, and family.. i dont ever remember having "friends" at the parties..but then again..i really dont remember my childhood much.. but my dad has pictures to show that we did do stuff.. lol.. I think what happened was when my parents divorced.. Life just got crappy for us kids.
My birthdays became more like a visit to grandmas house (my grandparents really could care less about us, they had their "favorites" and we werent it) with a cake and balloon and pictures of a fake happy smile. so yes.. you can see where im going with this. The day that is suppose to be a "happy one" just sucked for me. Especially since it usually ended up either a week before school started, the week of or the week after school started..which sucked for me because it seemed like every year i was in a new school due to overcrowding..and all my "friends" i had one or two really good ones..would move in the summer.. so. needless to say i was friendless most of the time..
Anyhow.. i know i know.. boo hoo hoo! (violins playing in the background).. lol
I have friends who laugh about this and say im funny because i do this but it has been such a relief to "change" the date.. and fun too! =o)
But this is why we do unbirthdays for me. July just works out much better! lol.
So, as you can imagine..now that i have kids of my own..i am Determined to do what is necessary to be sure that their birthdays dont suck like mine did .. I want them to enjoy the day of their birth and be proud of their month. =o)
So here's to me!! HAPPY UNBIRTHDAY DEBORAH! =o)
This saturday hubby is taking me out for dinner for my unbirthday!=o) I havent decided where i want to go yet.. any ideas?? =o) till next time! hugs- deb

TGIF !!!!

2009-07-17T12:46:00.000-07:00

First i want to thank all of you for reading my blogs.. I have gotten a big reponse from them and I am actually suprised by it..lol. I was told by more than one friend that its "interesting" and from another its "so right on!" I really appreiciate it. ha ha..I even got some "man you have a lot to say" which i said back.." funny you said that because everyone thinks of me as "the quiet one". I am by no means the quiet one. It's just that if i said too much..i dont think others would appreciate not being able to get a word or two in the conversation..ha ha.. So..i pride myself as being the "good listener". Thanks everyone!

As far as today goes.. It was truly a great day! We got up early and met my friend Cindy and her twin girls at the zoo this morning at 9am... and getting anywhere that early is unheard of! So i was proud that we did it! =o) It was a last minute plan from last night. I went to a GNI organizing party and it was great! It was wonderful to get out for awhile.. so.. yeah. very last minute playdate! =o)
We got to see almost everything in the zoo..the hippo was actually up walking around! it was cool to see! ill have to post a pic! ill post on my FB later this weekend. We visited the tiny tot nature spot where the girls played and ran around.. it was nice!
It was pretty late leaving..around noon but Melane wanted soo bad to get on the train. so we did! It was nice! We all had such a great time! I was even suprised that Melanie and Abby stayed awake the rest of the drive home! which was awesome because we still needed to have lunch! Its naptime now.. ahh.. silence..
Todays playdate was a nice end to the crazy week we had..
So..im keeping this blog short and sweet today! yay! lol
We really dont have much planned this weekend.. as always.. but i look forward to it!
Hope everyone enjoys their weekend! I will blog again on monday! Till then... toodles!
hugs- deb
OH! P.S if you ever want to make a comment..just post it on my FB feed post for this blog. =o) would LOVE to hear your responses, feedback, comments or just an i read ur blog! =o) Thanks again everyone!

Our Doctor's visit... vaccines, finger pricking, and more OH MY!

2009-07-16T11:44:00.000-07:00

Today we had our Dr. Appt well checkup for Melanie's 2 yr and Abigails 6 month visit. Oh.. the delight! LOL.. IF you already have kids..you know this can be a challenge.. I guarantee if you have one kid..its soo much easier..2 not so much.. Thankfully Daddy takes the morning off to help me.
We get to the dr's office and all is well.. They call us in and all is well.. so far so good! yay! Anyhow.. generally when we go they ask you to undress the kids from head to toe because they weigh them and measure height and get a head measurment. Well, Abby was first. She did good on top of the table scale.. (she didnt pee or poop this time! LOL.. for some reason both my girls are notorious for doing their business while on that table! lol) Then it was almost Melanie's turn.. I asked if Melanie could be weighed and measured on the "regular standing scale" because the previous visit she completely flipped out when daddy put her on the table scale.. YES! She's terrified! She's too big for it though..I had to stop changing her diaper on those restroom tables a long time ago because she was scared..i mean literally TEARS and she would breathe all crazy! The last visit we couldnt get her calmed down after it! The nurse told me "I have to put her on it" but i begged her!! please! she will flip out! So..thankfully she got her on the "regular scale"!!! and yay! she was great on it! Abby was 100% for height!!! i didnt realize she was soo tall! and Melanie was in the 95th %..Mel is also 3ft 1/2in!!!! OMG! I dont remember how much they weighed. =o) but they were both good weight % wise.
Of course with every visit.. the dr. goes down the list of questions..is she doing this? that? and the other? gives us tid bits and offers advice.. I definately had a big question!! lol... you see at night we still remove melanies stuffed animals (she only sleeps with 3, 2 at her feet and one she hugs) from her bed at night. and well.im soo tired of that! (this is why i had such a bad night! i sometimes accidently wake her up trying to get her animals out...like last night!!!!) so...i end up having to stay there and sleep on the floor next to the bed until she falls back to sleep.. which can take up to 4 hrs sometimes!!!!! thankfully last night was only 1hr. whew! but still.. anyhow.. back to my question for the dr.. so i ask.. " is she at the age where its ok to leave her animals in her bed at night?" and yay!! she says "oh yes! she's fine ..you can even introduce a kid pillow too if ya wanted.." I was soooo happy at this point! no more accidental wakeups at night!!! YIPPEEE!!! i wanted to hug the doctor! lol.. so then Melanie got all checked, then abby..ears, breathing, eyes, hips, mouth, and everything else they check for and then the doctor tells us. "Melanie doesnt need any shots!" YAY!!! i was having a party in my head.. until she said " oh but they both need to get fingers pricked to check to be sure they are not anemic.." "AW" dang! I thought it was gonna be a good day! good feeling is gone. so.. then i prep abby for all her vaccinations.. and really melanie was just getting a tiny finger prick and its over..right?? ha ha.. She was first upset that we had to stop her from playing (she had a cinderella doll w/her to keep her occupied)..then daddy had to hold her and try to distract her.. lol.. not fun! she screamed and yelled and cried.. but we gave her a sticker and she was fine.. she went back to playing where she was with her doll.. so then it was abby's turn.. while we wait for the results of the blood given. abby did great.. got 3 shots and a drink vaccine. cried for a minute but was good. oh and she got her finger pricked too. plus she was super tired. poor thing. but it went well.. So then they give us the results.. Melanie's was low according to the sample they took.. so now we have to take her to the clinic across the hall.. TO DO IT AGAIN! AND TAKE MORE BLOOD! WTH??? we didnt have to do it today.. but seriously..last time we waited we never went back! so..it was better to just go do it while we were already there... even though we know melanie is gonna flip again! SIGH...
so, we got our next appt set up.. which is abby's 9mos. well check up. Melanie wont need another appt until next yr. thank goodness!!!!! (unless she gets sick of course)
We go across the hall to the clinic and they call her in.. Melanie zips towards the door!!! lol.. she is super scared.. poor thing.. she's been in there before and it was not fun. She remembered.. but they got her in..and she screamed and yelled the entire time! its soo hard to hear them hurting and sad...but you know it has to be done. =o( When they were done..she was still doing the cry breathing.. as we were going towards the van..she was doing great ..then i hear her start crying again!! WTH? apparently, she tripped on daddy's big feet and fell.. way to go! lol.. so.. now she is still cry breathing and getting fussy.. this was just crazy! abby fell asleep..there we were tryng to calm her down the entire ride home.. we gave her juice..and when it was gone..she started crying again!!! OMG! weird!! so..we tried singing..pointing out things.. nothing was calming her down.. so..i ask her what would make her feel better? is there something she wants for lunch? she says. "yes! " ok..so im all ears!! " FRIES!!" sounded great to me!! Fries it is!!! so we stop and buy us all hamburgers and FRIES! sigh.. what a crazy morning! I'm just glad we dont have to do that very often.. geezz!
oh! and have an update on the victorias secret e-mail complaint i sent.. i got a reply back today saying how super sorry that i had such a terrible visit and they would like to offer me a 30% discount coupon for my trouble should i decide to continue to shop with them. They wanted to be sure to notify the manager of the store about the matter.. Thank goodness!!! Im taking the coupon and shopping at a different location!!

anyhow.. im beat.. thanks for following my days.. its hectic being a mom! =o) but soo worth it!
hugs- Deb

Parts of my morning...fun and disturbing

2009-07-15T11:47:00.000-07:00

Well, its a new day new adventure!

LOL .. I'm laughing because really it could have been better (or worse)...You will see what i mean.
Ok so today started out great! We are gonna meet some wonderful friends at the mall..hang out, chit chat, have lunch , have a nice walk etc.. Which we just love doing =o) . anyhow.. Before our friends showed..i HAD to stop at Starbucks..in the mall.. Well, there's this huge woman in line in front of me and a child with her..i assume her grandson..because she was an older woman. anyhow..apparently she had already got him a drink of sorts cause he was almost done with it and she's in line again ordering more.. well she ordered him a tall mocha frap..and she was taking forever!!!! so another lady took my order.. i wanted a GRANDE mocha frap.. which for some reason i had a feeling i should have ordered something diff. sigh.. anyhow..she finally gets out of the way and we are all waiting for our orders.. well, Mine came out first.. but since they didnt take names..they just put both our orders on the counter and of course.. the kid decides he wants the big one!! i was like WTH? and the lady was in my way and he had already started to drink it when i realized it was mine! so they finally move.. well. the dang lady gets in line AGAIN!! and i tell the employee at the counter." Excuse me.. I ordered the Grande Frap and the little boy took it!" So. she was like.. OH! sorry about that! and she makes me another one! so i get mine and we wait for our friends! And the huge lady is staring at me ugly because i made that comment!! WTH?? anyhow..i was like whatever! She shouldnt even be ordering that stuff in her condition and the kid being so young. I can understand one drink.. but he had just finished scarfing down one! sooo not healthy. anyhow..i needed my caffine chocolate fix!
So we had a great time with our friends..etc. etc.. As we were in line to order lunch..There was this small kid..about 1yr old maybe or a little younger..standing up in the stroller and was about to fall out cause she was jumping around and swaying!!! WTH?? My friend and i were like OMG that child is gonna fall and hurt her head! So.. tell me this..Why dont people buckle their kids in the stroller?? Im not talking about older kids who sit just fine..im talking about young kids that try to stand up while being pushed that SHOULD be buckled for their safety!!! I know some kids dont like to be buckled.. but come on people.. Isnt their safety more important??? Arent YOU the adult??? ugh.. its just sad.. My hubby tells me all about the baby death cases/ injuries that come with the cases.. ugh! Just stupid and heart breaking! Think people! I buckle my girls everywhere and on everything that has a buckle.. My kid is 2 and 7mos and i do it for their safety! anyhow.. that was just craziness! oh! and i'd like to throw this in! My friend witnessed a child being flung out of her stroller.. from an ESCALATOR !!!!!! broke the babies nose!!!! and they didnt even take the baby to the hospital in an ambulance! WTF???? Do not take strollers on escalators!! this is SOOO NOT SAFE!! It makes me sick that people do these things without second thought.. just because it will be convient for them..ugh.. just a guess but the child flinging from an escalator probably tells me the baby wasnt BUCKLED!! either. ugh.
Anyhow.. had to get that out!
After our friends left..I was heading to our van.. but i saw that victorias secret was having a sale on a new bra.. I just wanted to see when the sale ended.. I couldnt find an employee..usually i just leave.. but since i really could use a new set of bras..I found one an employye that is.. well. the employee couldnt tell me when the sale ended.. WTH?? so.. im thinking maybe i can just check the website! as we are leaving the lady tells melanie..im gonna show you something..so she pulls out this small container with pink feathers on the top..im thinking why are you showing this to her. next thing i know she's like smoothing the feathers on her..melanie laughs and i tell her i gotta go..its naptime.. so i leave.. im heading out the door and i see melanie's arm sparkling!!! WTH?
So i get to the van and i turn it on to cool it.. and im LIVID!! apparently the container with feathers was some sort of hootchie glitter!!! Melanie was glittered from head to toe!!! and the stroller even!! I was sooooooooooooo upset! im thinking.. why the hell would anyone think its ok to put glitter on a 2 yr old that is about to have a nap!! So many words ran through my head as i pulled out the wipeys and started rubbing the SH** off!! Im also thinking.. "great! im gonna have to throw her in the tub now!" kinda difficult to do with two kids!! luckily i had plenty of wipeys and it came off..i even had it all over me at one point! geezzz! I was relieved that abby didnt get any on her... Well. needless to say i e-mailed victorias secret about this nonesense! I would have called the store but i was on the way home and i didnt want to get more upset than i already was and i try my best not to talk on the phone when im driving.. safety issue.. so we will see if they reply back.
I'm fine now.. but..its these little stupid things that happen thats just ridiculous! Maybe i just assume too much that people should know better.. lol. Oh! and everytime we go to the mall..I swear i want to pick up the camera and throw it! There is a little stand where they just decide its ok to take pictures of your child as your walking.. i know its a public place but come on! you dont know what they do with the pictures they take!!! Today i yelled out " NOOO!" i'm tired of telling you people no! stop taking pictures of my kids!" she just kinda stepped back. sigh. This should not be allowed unless you allow them to. ya know? well.. im tired from all this stuff that happened..it seems like such a long morning.. =o)
so..since both girls are down..im gonna lay down for a few too.. you take it when you can get it people. =o) hugs- deb

Decisions.. Decisions..

2009-07-14T12:36:00.000-07:00

Today I decided to actually talk about day as a mommy..
First and formost.. The girls tell me when its time to wake up. Example: Today Abby woke up at 7:50am.. So..Got up to quickly make a bottle and fed her/burped her. As we chill out here in my room on the rocker in front of my lovely laptop. Daddy leaves for work as we send him off with kisses and "have a good day! Love you!"
Since we are next to the computer, I generally peek into my e-mail and facebook acct. I change Abby's diaper and we play a little while as I sing to her. "ABC'S" ..She smles and of course.. grabs my hair and pulls it out! Its never ending.. lol.
By 9am im trying to decide on what we are gonna do today.. Stay home again? go to playgroup? run errands? what are we gonna do?
Well, in two of our groups no one was going to playgroup.. and the other was going to the movies..which right now I cant manage with baby Abby and Mel alone. So Playgroup is out for today.
Im thinking..looking at the time.. and decide lets run some errands.. what the heck! I had a few items to return to Micheals and i needed to see if they had some ribbon that i needed more of. Also wanted to go to walmart to see if they had anything too.
But alas..My crops are ready on Farm Town and i must do that asap! so..i get some friends to harvest and plow for me..this took some time but not as long as it use to. =o)
Now the hard part... I need to wake up Melanie..change her diaper, dress her, comb her hair, give her some milk and something to eat.. yes..sometimes this can take forever! its almost 10am and Abby is starting to get crabby.... she's tired.. and its an hr away from needing to feed her again.. sigh.. Decisions, Decisions... should we wait an hr and feed her before we go? should we just go and feed her while we are out? should i try and feed her a little earlier so we can get on with the day?? hmm.... Just an FYI .. I hate having to feed Abby when we are out and about..depending on where we are.. it can be hard..cause i have Melanie too..so she needs to be strapped in somewhere.lol stroller/carseat. so.. i decided since she (Abby)was tired..i'd give her enough formula to hold her for a few more hrs. When she was done..she passed right out on me! She was tired! Which was a good thing too..I was able to strap her in her carseat and off we went to run errands.
Errands are generally no big deal but it depends on where you go.. Sometimes i have to pull out the double stroller because the stupid carts are too small to fit abby's carseat in the basket of it..(it must go in the basket, mainly because i need to sit Melanie in the front of the cart buckled.) But besides that.. its dangerous to put carseats on top of carts!! thats a huge no-no!! I dont know why people do this?? That carseat can easily tip over! People dont watch where they are going much less watch out for you and your baby! anyhow..sorry.. off subject. he he.
So at Micheals i have to pull out the double stroller... because.. small carts... boo! but i got what i needed and we were off to walmart! Walmart was across the road so we got there quick! Anyhow..i like that the walmart carts are big..can fit abby's carseat and melanie in front! Target is this way too! anyhow.. Melanie is pointing out things and saying names.. like: pants, yellow, or flowers, shirt, shoes.. its cute.. and im usually asking her what color things are and when she tells me things that are right..i respond.. yes! you are soo smart melanie! wow! and we keep going.. of course abby is awake and melanie and abby are touching hands..and laughing. so cute! i ask melanie.."do you want to look at the toys?" (she has a giftcard from there for b-day gifts) and she says.. "NNOOO!!" Home? lol.. wow! never thought a mommy would hear that huh?? lol.. well, she is one to not want things when we go to stores. I think she knows we go for specific things and thats it..if mommy and daddy offer though.. at first she might say yes.. but usually by the time we check out she doesnt want it anymore.. which is great! We leave it there! lol.. But when there is something that she wont let go of.. then if def goes home with us..cause then we know she really likes it and will use it. and its generally pretty cheap. =o)
Anyhow..I asked Melanie before we left what she wanted for lunch...she says "EAT?".. i say yes.. what do you want to EAT for lunch? and i go down the list of what she eats.. Mac n cheese? NOO!!,, Grill cheese? NOOO! nuggets? NNOOO! Peanut butter sandwich? NOOO! so then.. i asked.. PIZZA??? "OKAY!" she says! PIZA HM! (saying pizza is yummy) lol.. so..i go to the frozen pizza aisle and get one..
We get home and she wants to watch NEMO.. So yeah..i let her.. She was a good girl so yes.. she can watch whatever! lol.. while i cooked the pizza and let it cool.. I put Abby in the jumpy (excersaucer)and she watched Nemo too!
The pizza was ready and Melanie and I dug in.. we were hungry! notice i didnt mention breakfast! I rarely get to eat it..always on the go! once i was done..i got Abby and put her in the high chair so i can feed her , her cereal. She ate.. and we were all listening to a Barney CD that we just love! i was making them both laugh!
Once Mel was done i let her go watch a bit more Nemo while i washed a few dishes and bottles. Abby started to fall asleep in her chair.. I proceeded to put her in her crib.. She was out! after i was done..I put Melanie for nap.. changed diapers..turned on her music/fan. gave her her puppy to sleep with ..hugs and kisses.. and then.. silence in the house..
AHH!! breathing.. "MOMMY TIME!"
So, i was soo excited about the new ribbon i got..so i started doing that.. Making hair bows.. its my hobby of sorts! but Abby woke up..so i had to stop and now shes out again and i am here typing away.. This is my morning. Not bad.. Everyday is a challenge but its manageable =o) . You just have to love your kids and be grateful for this time you have with them.. Because there are LOTS of moms out there who wish they could stay home with their kids.. but can't. =o(
This is for all the SAHM's that make decisions on a daily basis and go places with the kids because sometimes being at home can drain you! Much Love!
BTW.. Abby is up now.. Mommy time is over for the time being.. AW! =o(
hugs- deb

Another day in my life.. hurdle jumped

2009-07-11T14:35:00.000-07:00

Well, Another day.. more obstacles..

sigh.. where shall i start.. oh yes! The text I recieved this morning around 10am.. If you don't already know.. my side of the family has been notorious for making last minute gatherings.. many of which we cant make it too because.. da da da daaa! They Are Last Minute!! or they want to get together too damn late.. (naptime) anyhow. so my older brother sends me a text asking what we were doing for lunch.. so i text back. eating at home. lol.. anyhow.. He invited us to chuck e cheese for my niece's last minute birthday celebration.. She turns 5 today. well.. the problem was its at 1pm.. yeah.. thats too LATE for us! but i was willing to make an exception because for some reason my poor neice, for no fault of her own, gets somewhat forgotten. so.. i told them i would go earlier around noon so mel can play a bit cause we cant stay too long.. well. everyone gets there at 1pm.. they order the pizza.. we play..all is well. we eat..all is well.. but then we are about to go.. its about 2:30 mind you already and past naptime! my mom decides we should have cake.. so we order a cake sing..etc.. and its 3pm.. we didnt leave till about 3:30!!!! Melanie past out as soon as we got home! anyhow.. that was ok. but i know i might regret it later! sigh.. also.id like to mention before we went..i stopped at target to get her a gift.. poor thing.. i was the only one that brought her a birthday gift! not even her dad brought her anything! He told me he has gifts for her but i thought to myself.. hmm..at least bring one gift so that she feels like she wasnt jipped!! wth?? well. whatever is what i thought.
I also got a call from my step-mom inviting us to some park in Kerrville for tomorrow.. sunday. umm... again.. LATE! 11:30am ! and very very last minute.. WTH??? they wanted to bar b q and fish etc.. which is all well and good. but we cant just get up and go do things like everyone else. So I told her.. "I appreciate the invite but for some reason NO ONE in our family understands that i have little ones." not just that but they need naps. OR all hell will break loose in the evening. She was like.. " i know im sorry" Im like .. im sorry but.. its HOT at 11am, my little ones need to nap and its pointless for us to go drive that far just so we have to leave right away.. Sorry but we can't. Have fun! Sometimes i dont think my family takes my situation into consideration when they want to make plans with us. And they wonder why they dont see us very often.. hmmm... (people dont plan to fail, they fail to plan) and my mom..has it in her head that kids will sleep anywhere if they are tired enough.. WTH?? This i know is true.. but im not one of those moms that drag my children around because whatever im doing is more important! I understand that some moms have no choice sometimes.. but come on! My girls come first! I'm not even second on my list! Why cant they just understand?? I wonder if any one else has this same problem? ...sigh...
At least Melanie had fun at chick e cheese today and my mom got a chance to hold Abby for awhile! I am exhausted!
I had to let go of my frustration..thanks!
Wish me luck this evening.. Girls are going to inlaws and we are gonna go chill out w/dinner and we havent decided what else yet. =o)
Haapy Birthday Marcela!! hugs- deb

My First Blog!

2009-07-10T21:54:00.000-07:00

Hi All! I have been meaning to blog for over a year now and I finally got a site going thanks to my friend Drea!! YAY!
Well, As you may already know I am a SAHM (Stay At Home Mom) and I LOVE IT! It was very unexpected really since my goal was to start teaching right out of college...knowing that I was expecting (planned). I just couldnt do it.. After Melanie was born..I could not see myself driving her everyday to a daycare.. (I give props to those who can or have to) but it was just not for me. I never in a million years thought i'd ever stay home and be a mommy full time. Of course, After Melanie was 6 months..I had the itch to have another!! and we did! I have put a stop to the baby making for now... who knows whether we will have more in a few years.. For now..2 is great!
Dont get me wrong though.. its HARD! Half the time I feel like i'm just lugging Abby around because she's soo small still.. It has gotten soo much better now that she can sit up on her own and is starting to eat solids...sigh.. I have also been lucky that Melanie takes to her sister sooo well!! I have heard of other peoples kids being aggressive and mean towards the other and its a phase I know but man..I am very glad my girls get along..at least for the time being. =o)
Melanie just turned 2 on June 5th and Abby 6 mos the same day. They are exactly to the day 18 months apart..and birthdays are every 6months.. I dont know how that happened but it works for me! =o)
Now I know many of you know all this stuff but I post it for those who may not know much about me or what I go through day to day.
I am happy that I will have this outlet to share and vent out my daily, weekly, or monthly mommy life experiences. I hope you will continue to follow me in my journey of motherhood and show me some support by making any comments etc. I would love to know what you think. If there is anything you'd like to know more about please let me know too..I really have alot to say.. lol. and I dont mind giving my thoughts or perspectives on things. =o) Thanks Everyone!